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Jan. 6th, 2003 05:06 amSo.
It's 2003 already. Wow. I swear just a few short months ago I was moaning about how intolerable it was to wait an entire year before seeing The Two Towers. I wish I could say I did great things in 2002, but I didn't. I ate, slept, and occasionally my laundry. Woohooo. :) This had better be a damn exciting year, because frankly I deserve some excitement! *grins*
Things I will do this year:
Things I will not do:
It seems like the first week of the new year has been particularly traumatic for my friends -- three of them have left LJ without warning, although hopefully they will decide to return, if only for the purely selfish reason that I miss them very much. Another lost a treasured and irreplaceable possession, which was like losing a part of herself forever. And yet another fears he has ruined his first relationship and doesn't know what to do. Virtually everyone is having a very bad start indeed. How I wish I could change that. I wish so much I wasn't just me, that I was someone important and special with the ability to change things for the better; they don’t have to be great changes, just ones that make my friends happy. But I'm still just me. No amount of wishing will change that. (Dammit I want magickal powers! Is that so much to ask! ;-)
I went to a comic book fair near Kings Cross station this afternoon (I really should just get GEEK tattooed on my forehead), and had a little chuckle when I noticed I was the only female in the place. Sometimes being a geekygirl is such fun, I feel very elitist and special, and other times I just think 'Why oh WHY am I the only one (or at least, the only sane one) at this Star Trek/Doctor Who/Fantasy/Whatever Convention??' *laughs* I bought 3 X-Men: Evolution comics, a Scary Godmother #1 (a fantastic series by Jill Thompson, really sweet and silly and spooky) and even the very first editions of X-Men and X-Force I read from 1992. Ahhh, memories. *G* I didn't find the Nightcrawler action figure I was looking for, and as no one else seems to have it I guess I'll have to troll through Ebay and pay an outrageous price for it. But at least I'll have a Kurt of my very own. *grins*
I also bought some great new sheet music this week, to help me practice my piano -- The Nightmare Before Christmas, Tori Amos B-Sides (now have all the books except Scarlet's Walk, is that even out yet?) and even found the script book with sheet music of Once More, With Feeling, the Buffy musical, whooot! 'Life's a Show' is such an easy song to play, and all the others aren't very difficult either. Am very disappointed that neither 'The Mustard' or 'The Parking Ticket' are in the book, as I really wanted to use them as audition songs -- okay, so they're not exactly appropriate for Les Mis, but if you walk in for a comedy audition and just sing 'THEY GOT THE MUSTARD OOOOOUUT!' you're guaranteed to be remembered. *grins*
I suppose I should go to bed now, what with it being 5am and all. *giggles*
Before I go, please say hello to some new friends! Welcome![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
gypsyjr and moonriver -- I don't know you, but you both must have excellent taste to have added me as a friend. *smug grin* And say hello to mysticpenguin, sheldrake and ladynemo! Wheee! (I'd watch out for LadyNemo, she pretends to be sweet and innocent, but she's really a very naughty lil' vixen. ;-)
*bounces off to bed*
It's 2003 already. Wow. I swear just a few short months ago I was moaning about how intolerable it was to wait an entire year before seeing The Two Towers. I wish I could say I did great things in 2002, but I didn't. I ate, slept, and occasionally my laundry. Woohooo. :) This had better be a damn exciting year, because frankly I deserve some excitement! *grins*
Things I will do this year:
- Audition for Batman: The Musical. Yes. it's a real musical. And yes, Tim Burton is involved. *excited squee*
- Lose weight so am prepared for above mentioned musical. 100 pounds should do it...;-)
Okay okay, that's completely unrealistic. But I have to go on a serious diet this year, I cannot continue living in the shame spiral that is my life with all this excess baggage. Ugh. - Stay in touch with my friends, and never forget to send them cards for their birthday.
Speaking of which, I should probably putashfae's in the post tomorrow. - Remember that I am a wonderful person, and that I deserve to be loved.
Things I will not do:
- Ignore my father for months. Communication is painful and strained at the best of times, but I will not make things worse by not talking to him, as this only makes him angrier. Also it is not healthy to have this kind of relationship, and must work to make amends. If possible.
- Berate myself for being too fat/ugly/unpopular/unwanted etc.
Easier said than done, I know. But I shall try, one day at a time. - Let my fear of rejection rule my life. I will make decisions, and I will stick to them! YES!
It seems like the first week of the new year has been particularly traumatic for my friends -- three of them have left LJ without warning, although hopefully they will decide to return, if only for the purely selfish reason that I miss them very much. Another lost a treasured and irreplaceable possession, which was like losing a part of herself forever. And yet another fears he has ruined his first relationship and doesn't know what to do. Virtually everyone is having a very bad start indeed. How I wish I could change that. I wish so much I wasn't just me, that I was someone important and special with the ability to change things for the better; they don’t have to be great changes, just ones that make my friends happy. But I'm still just me. No amount of wishing will change that. (Dammit I want magickal powers! Is that so much to ask! ;-)
I went to a comic book fair near Kings Cross station this afternoon (I really should just get GEEK tattooed on my forehead), and had a little chuckle when I noticed I was the only female in the place. Sometimes being a geekygirl is such fun, I feel very elitist and special, and other times I just think 'Why oh WHY am I the only one (or at least, the only sane one) at this Star Trek/Doctor Who/Fantasy/Whatever Convention??' *laughs* I bought 3 X-Men: Evolution comics, a Scary Godmother #1 (a fantastic series by Jill Thompson, really sweet and silly and spooky) and even the very first editions of X-Men and X-Force I read from 1992. Ahhh, memories. *G* I didn't find the Nightcrawler action figure I was looking for, and as no one else seems to have it I guess I'll have to troll through Ebay and pay an outrageous price for it. But at least I'll have a Kurt of my very own. *grins*
I also bought some great new sheet music this week, to help me practice my piano -- The Nightmare Before Christmas, Tori Amos B-Sides (now have all the books except Scarlet's Walk, is that even out yet?) and even found the script book with sheet music of Once More, With Feeling, the Buffy musical, whooot! 'Life's a Show' is such an easy song to play, and all the others aren't very difficult either. Am very disappointed that neither 'The Mustard' or 'The Parking Ticket' are in the book, as I really wanted to use them as audition songs -- okay, so they're not exactly appropriate for Les Mis, but if you walk in for a comedy audition and just sing 'THEY GOT THE MUSTARD OOOOOUUT!' you're guaranteed to be remembered. *grins*
I suppose I should go to bed now, what with it being 5am and all. *giggles*
Before I go, please say hello to some new friends! Welcome
gypsyjr and moonriver -- I don't know you, but you both must have excellent taste to have added me as a friend. *smug grin* And say hello to mysticpenguin, sheldrake and ladynemo! Wheee! (I'd watch out for LadyNemo, she pretends to be sweet and innocent, but she's really a very naughty lil' vixen. ;-)*bounces off to bed*
