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Feb. 21st, 2003 11:30 pmToday I had the best rehearsal I can remember for years.
The morning run-through was very tired and sluggish, and so in the afternoon we were allowed to make silly noises and cheer each other on during the songs, in order to more energy and enthusiasm. And the difference was astounding -- everyone was whooting and whistling and saying things like 'Yeah baby!' backstage, the whole thing was such an utterly wonderful experience. I can't remember the last time I was so happy performing. It's moments like that that make you remember why you wanted to be an actor in the first place. And believe me, I've been having my doubts lately. Big ones. I've been pretty miserable and unsatisfied, and wondering (once again) if this is really the right path for me, but today I think my faith has been restored. Well, for a few more hours anyway. ;-)
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banzai_ryu *big squishy hugs* :D
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Complete change of mood.
I am having a Muriel moment. Does everyone know the brilliant Australian film Muriel's Wedding? I don't think I've ever related to a movie character as much as I do Muriel, and right now I'm definitely feeling like her -- 'fat and useless'. I suppose that comes with being an actor, and feeling like your whole existence is on display for an audience to criticise. And when you know you don't come off as 'perfect', you start feeling useless. Although of course I've always felt that way. I hate having Muriel Moments, I'd much rather be happy, cheerful and carefree all the time. But I suppose there's hope that if I really am like Muriel, I will one day realize that I am a worthy human being, and escape my mental prison of Porpoise Spit forever. *grins* (Maybe I should just move to Sydney and speed the process along...;-)
Bah! I banish these unhelpful thoughts from my mind, be gone foul fiends!
Gosh, that was easy. I wish I could do the same thing to my tummy. *laughs*
I wish I had more exciting things to say, but I'm afraid it's been a rather uninspiring week. Maybe tomorrow I'll rescue some distressed dragons from fire breathing maidens...*giggles*
The morning run-through was very tired and sluggish, and so in the afternoon we were allowed to make silly noises and cheer each other on during the songs, in order to more energy and enthusiasm. And the difference was astounding -- everyone was whooting and whistling and saying things like 'Yeah baby!' backstage, the whole thing was such an utterly wonderful experience. I can't remember the last time I was so happy performing. It's moments like that that make you remember why you wanted to be an actor in the first place. And believe me, I've been having my doubts lately. Big ones. I've been pretty miserable and unsatisfied, and wondering (once again) if this is really the right path for me, but today I think my faith has been restored. Well, for a few more hours anyway. ;-)
Welcome welcome new friend
banzai_ryu *big squishy hugs* :D------------------------------------------------------------------
Complete change of mood.
I am having a Muriel moment. Does everyone know the brilliant Australian film Muriel's Wedding? I don't think I've ever related to a movie character as much as I do Muriel, and right now I'm definitely feeling like her -- 'fat and useless'. I suppose that comes with being an actor, and feeling like your whole existence is on display for an audience to criticise. And when you know you don't come off as 'perfect', you start feeling useless. Although of course I've always felt that way. I hate having Muriel Moments, I'd much rather be happy, cheerful and carefree all the time. But I suppose there's hope that if I really am like Muriel, I will one day realize that I am a worthy human being, and escape my mental prison of Porpoise Spit forever. *grins* (Maybe I should just move to Sydney and speed the process along...;-)
Bah! I banish these unhelpful thoughts from my mind, be gone foul fiends!
Gosh, that was easy. I wish I could do the same thing to my tummy. *laughs*
I wish I had more exciting things to say, but I'm afraid it's been a rather uninspiring week. Maybe tomorrow I'll rescue some distressed dragons from fire breathing maidens...*giggles*
