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May. 22nd, 2003 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
neverwhereArrghh.
Am the fattest fat that was ever fat. *sob*
No one should ever have to be weighed and have their body fat measured with those horrid tongs while being smirked at by a skinny bitch who is obviously sooooo superior to you because she doesn't look like a beached whale.
I mean, I knew I was fat -- it's rather impossible not to notice, but I didn't think I was THAT fat. When I saw the scale I just wanted to die.
Am now going to gym three times a week in hopes that I will no longer be fat, unproductive and unloved member of society. Also must not eat anything remotely delicious, as it will, apparently, add an extra 5 inches to my waist as soon as it touches my lips. Hurrah.
*hangs head and sighs*
Am the fattest fat that was ever fat. *sob*
No one should ever have to be weighed and have their body fat measured with those horrid tongs while being smirked at by a skinny bitch who is obviously sooooo superior to you because she doesn't look like a beached whale.
I mean, I knew I was fat -- it's rather impossible not to notice, but I didn't think I was THAT fat. When I saw the scale I just wanted to die.
Am now going to gym three times a week in hopes that I will no longer be fat, unproductive and unloved member of society. Also must not eat anything remotely delicious, as it will, apparently, add an extra 5 inches to my waist as soon as it touches my lips. Hurrah.
*hangs head and sighs*
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:37 pm (UTC)Don't let it get you too down. Everyone on the Internet is fat. You're among peers! ;)
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:40 pm (UTC)*laughs*
This is true.
Hey, if I lose the weight, I'll no longer be an oppresed geek! I don't think I want to lose my minority status...;-)
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:40 pm (UTC)Body fat is jnot worth crying over..
if you are healthy and happy.. who gives a shit what size you are???
you are a cutie.. don't let the man get you down
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:43 pm (UTC)As
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:45 pm (UTC)Hehehe yes we did. :) *smoooch*
Meh, I'm not crying, just agonizing and hating myself. Which is of course entirely different. *giggles* ;-)
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:47 pm (UTC)So are you. Fuck them, Nevvie, for making you feel like you need to conform to their standards to be a worthy member of society. Let that bitch smirk all she wants, if it's all she can take pleasure from. Fuck them and go out and keep doing your thing, because if they can't see how beautiful (inside and out) you are, they aren't worth the space they take up. We can see it and we love you.
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:47 pm (UTC)Have broken down in doctor's office, into horrid sobs, every one of last visits because nothing seems to make a difference. Horrible cycles and all that. At least you're going to the gym. I'm scared of machine-thingies and I hate being where people can see me, so it's not even worth the money I don't have. You're making an effort. It's shitty that it matters so much in the world, but at least you're trying to make a change for the positive. I'm just doomed.
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:48 pm (UTC)ixnay on the ymgay. Much more effective weight loss regime is stalking out Santa Monica for me. Okay? You did more or less promise...
your new studio flat sounds incredible! You are so lucky :)
x
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-22 05:53 pm (UTC)I do have an open invitation to visit my cousin in Santa Monica any time...;-)
And you are going to come visit me at my flat, right? Cause stalking is definitely more fun with two. *grins*
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Date: 2003-05-22 05:56 pm (UTC)You do? Not...photographic proof, right? *nervous grin*
Am so un-photogenic. The camera despises me. *giggles*
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:02 pm (UTC)Thankfully it's not a normal gym -- there's no way in hell I could ever submit myself to the torture that is the American gym, full of tight-arsed blondes in thongs. *shudder* This place isn't even a gym really, it's very small and private, and your sessions on the equipment are just you and your personal trainer. THANK GOD.
So I'll get bossed around alot, but as least I won't have to worry about Barbie looking down at me in disgust. :)
You're not doomed. *snugggles*
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:05 pm (UTC)*respect*
*worship*
*love* :)
Ai, you're so amazing Kris. Thanks for making me feel better darling. *hugs and kisses* :)
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:06 pm (UTC)Those tongs have just got to be one of the cruelest implements ever. Blargh.
Yay going to the gym (it can be quite satisfying), but NEVER THINK that you are unproductive and unloved. Unloved?? Read your LJ comments, woman! :D (I know you know this, but I must point it out if I'm to be allowed to keep my "Mistress of the Obvious" badge.)
<333
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:10 pm (UTC)*laughs*
That's a very nice, shiny badge you've got there. ;-)
I know I'm not 'unloved' per se, at least, not online -- it's the real world, where I am utterly ignored by everyone except the people who want to mock me that gets me down. No wonder I spend as little time there as possible. *grins impishly*
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:25 pm (UTC)So, have you been getting this freakishly hot weather, too? It's been hella hott down here.
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-05-22 06:30 pm (UTC)As long as you're healthy and feel good, that's all that matters.
Nolite te bastardes caborundorum!
Date: 2003-05-22 06:30 pm (UTC)Seriously, weight norms are one of the most warped and inconsistent things about Murkian culture, as you well know, in lal probability.
--
Banazîr
(just bax from a trip to DC)
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Date: 2003-05-22 06:48 pm (UTC)Number two: As many, many other people have said, fuck the smirking twig-girls. (Though perhaps not literally....) If some bitch thinks she can make you feel bad just because you're not a size zero, she needs to have her ass beaten into the GROUND. If anything, you should've been smirking at her - at least you don't look like a skeleton.
Being fat does not equal being ugly. POWER TO THE PLUS-SIZED! *big hug*
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Date: 2003-05-22 07:11 pm (UTC)You're beautiful, Nev.
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Date: 2003-05-22 09:43 pm (UTC)anyway, don't get down on yourself, Nevvie. *squish* <3 who gives a shit what those skinny bitches think?
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Date: 2003-05-22 09:44 pm (UTC)i've read all the comments, and i'm not going to preach about how fat is beautiful because i look in the mirror and cry and i am lots of things, but i am not a fucking hypocrite.
what i am going to tell you is that you are beautiful. you are a beautiful human being, goddamit, and one of the coolest people i know.
however. if you don't feel beautiful, if you aren't happy looking into the mirror, if you can't stand to step on a scale. then change. but you have to differentiate— are you going to the gym three times a week because you want to be healthier, and you want to be happier with yourself? or are you doing it because the bitch who weighed you gave you a disapproving look?
because if it's the latter, then a big FUCK YOU to the world at large. but if it's the former, then i am with you all the way.
although seriously, have you ever shopped at torrid (http://www.torrid.com/)? because they have clothes i would gain weight to fit into.
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Date: 2003-05-22 11:41 pm (UTC)Basically, sod them all!
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Date: 2003-05-22 11:55 pm (UTC)hey, you have another reason to be pissed at your dad now!