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I think I'm going to cry.

I've desperately wanted tickets to see the incredible Phillip Quast (actor, singer, gorgeous Australian studmuffin), but every time I called the theatre I was either put on hold indefinately or only got the automated machine. Today I called and finally got through to a real person, only to be told that every performance was sold out. This is tragic enough, but what makes it even worse is that I just found out Jason Robert Brown, the young American composer who wrote my absolute favourite new musical, Songs for a New World, would be the musical director for Philip's show.
*screams and tears her hair out* WHY do they taunt me so! To know that two of my favourite people would be in a show together and I have no way of seeing it is pure torture.
Am so depressed. I am just not having a good week. And it started off so well! *heavy sigh*

I hate being depressed. I'm such a jolly, cheerful person, being this way makes me feel ashamed of myself.

I don't know what's going on at Hogwarts Online -- something big is happening but no one (of course) will tell me what the hell it is. Wish people would just TELL me things for once,
instead of me finding out weeks later after everyone and their dog already knows. Anyway. I'm just spouting rubbish because I'm sad.
I think I'll read my favourite book for a while and try to cheer up. Being upset really doesn't suit me.

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Oh god.

Am crying my heart out now.

WHY do I let these things happen? Why do I care what other people think of me?

Please let this end, I can not stand being this way.