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neverwhereI'm going on a diet.
It needs to be done. I have been told far too many times to count that if only I were thinner I would never have any problems getting work -- agents would be disembowelling each other at a chance to have me on their books, because I'm cute, energetic, passionate, friendly and a genuinely nice person, something which is (believe me) is a rare find in the theatre world, and of course have great singing and acting abilities. But wrap all that talent and personality in a roly poly pudding like me, and they won't even give me a second glance. It's okay to be big, as long as you're REALLY big, like Dawn French big, but medium big like me will get you nowhere, just the occasional serving wench and possibly the 'skinny lead girl's fat best friend'. Hurrah. So I really am going on a diet now. Besides, I think I will have a nervous breakdown if I have to go clothes shopping again and leave every single damn store empty handed because not a thing fits me. Fat girl clothes don’t fit because I'm too short and bulge in all the wrong places (everyone is supposed to have a specific body shape, like the Apple [big on top, thin hips and legs], Pear [big hips and thighs] and Hourglass [big everywhere, thin waist], but I'm a fucking rectangle -- thick ankles, big thighs, absolutely no definition between hips and waist, big chest -- and there is not a goddamn thing made by ANYone that can match my body shape. If I at least had some kind of curves like normal fat women, I'd be happier. It's the fact that I'm so bloody unnatural that really upsets me) and of course I can't even think of entering a 'normal' store, because they'd probably throw me out. I was thrown out of Morgan, a snottily discriminating clothes shop, once, where they don't have anything above a size 8 (that's a US 4-6) because they don't want 'fat girls wearing their clothes'. Nice, huh. Anyway. What was I saying? I have no idea. I am probably just waffling on quite a bit because I'm extremely annoyed right now. Sorry. The point I'm trying to make is, I need to go on a diet. Or at least, a 'reduced food intake regime'. Yeah, that sounds better, doesn't it. :)
I'm currently reading a book daringly entitled I, Lucifer, which, not unsurprisingly, earns me alot of strange looks reading it on the train. It's an autobiography from the Morningstar's point of view, and although I thought it was a bit pretentious at first, I'm rather enjoying it. Lucifer is portrayed as a very camp, sarcastic, charming and utterly British protagonist (antagonist? Hard to say really), which makes it quite difficult not to think of Crowley when reading him, but of course I like Crowley a lot more, mostly because although he's a daemon, he's a nice guy really. Lucifer, however, is not. I would probably recommend this book to anyone who likes Good Omens, but you should be warned that the language is exceedingly filthy at times, although the writer (or should I say, Lucifer) has the most marvellous gift for hyperbole, and the descriptions of the every day world as seen through the senses of an Angel are remarkably beautiful.
I'm a little bit sad that an LJ friend has taken me off her friendslist because she doesn't find my journal interesting. You can say alot of things about me, quite a few of them negative I'm sure, but I always thought I was interesting. Ah well. Her loss, neh? :)
Great Britian: Birthplace of Cheese Racing. Oh, how I love this country. *laughs*
Okay. You knew it was going to happen. I don't normally leap on the proverbial bandwagon like this, but I just can't resist.
Please do answer, and give this silly hobbit wench a happy. *grins*
I ____ Nevvie.
Nevvie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would _______.
I think Nevvie should _____.
Nevvie needs ______.
I want to ____________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of _______.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ________.
It needs to be done. I have been told far too many times to count that if only I were thinner I would never have any problems getting work -- agents would be disembowelling each other at a chance to have me on their books, because I'm cute, energetic, passionate, friendly and a genuinely nice person, something which is (believe me) is a rare find in the theatre world, and of course have great singing and acting abilities. But wrap all that talent and personality in a roly poly pudding like me, and they won't even give me a second glance. It's okay to be big, as long as you're REALLY big, like Dawn French big, but medium big like me will get you nowhere, just the occasional serving wench and possibly the 'skinny lead girl's fat best friend'. Hurrah. So I really am going on a diet now. Besides, I think I will have a nervous breakdown if I have to go clothes shopping again and leave every single damn store empty handed because not a thing fits me. Fat girl clothes don’t fit because I'm too short and bulge in all the wrong places (everyone is supposed to have a specific body shape, like the Apple [big on top, thin hips and legs], Pear [big hips and thighs] and Hourglass [big everywhere, thin waist], but I'm a fucking rectangle -- thick ankles, big thighs, absolutely no definition between hips and waist, big chest -- and there is not a goddamn thing made by ANYone that can match my body shape. If I at least had some kind of curves like normal fat women, I'd be happier. It's the fact that I'm so bloody unnatural that really upsets me) and of course I can't even think of entering a 'normal' store, because they'd probably throw me out. I was thrown out of Morgan, a snottily discriminating clothes shop, once, where they don't have anything above a size 8 (that's a US 4-6) because they don't want 'fat girls wearing their clothes'. Nice, huh. Anyway. What was I saying? I have no idea. I am probably just waffling on quite a bit because I'm extremely annoyed right now. Sorry. The point I'm trying to make is, I need to go on a diet. Or at least, a 'reduced food intake regime'. Yeah, that sounds better, doesn't it. :)
I'm currently reading a book daringly entitled I, Lucifer, which, not unsurprisingly, earns me alot of strange looks reading it on the train. It's an autobiography from the Morningstar's point of view, and although I thought it was a bit pretentious at first, I'm rather enjoying it. Lucifer is portrayed as a very camp, sarcastic, charming and utterly British protagonist (antagonist? Hard to say really), which makes it quite difficult not to think of Crowley when reading him, but of course I like Crowley a lot more, mostly because although he's a daemon, he's a nice guy really. Lucifer, however, is not. I would probably recommend this book to anyone who likes Good Omens, but you should be warned that the language is exceedingly filthy at times, although the writer (or should I say, Lucifer) has the most marvellous gift for hyperbole, and the descriptions of the every day world as seen through the senses of an Angel are remarkably beautiful.
I'm a little bit sad that an LJ friend has taken me off her friendslist because she doesn't find my journal interesting. You can say alot of things about me, quite a few of them negative I'm sure, but I always thought I was interesting. Ah well. Her loss, neh? :)
Great Britian: Birthplace of Cheese Racing. Oh, how I love this country. *laughs*
Okay. You knew it was going to happen. I don't normally leap on the proverbial bandwagon like this, but I just can't resist.
Please do answer, and give this silly hobbit wench a happy. *grins*
I ____ Nevvie.
Nevvie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would _______.
I think Nevvie should _____.
Nevvie needs ______.
I want to ____________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of _______.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ________.
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:10 pm (UTC)Nevvie is nifty.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would probably stammer and make a fool of myself, because coherence is not my strong point around nifty people.
I think Nevvie should stay exactly as she is.
Nevvie needs to go back to Morgan and give those snotty little bastards a piece of her mind. Nothing above a size 8? What kind of twisted world are they living in?! *growls*
I want to have coffee with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Neil Gaiman.
Someday, I think Nevvie will meet Billy Boyd - if she hasn't already - and glomp him into oblivion ^_~
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:11 pm (UTC)I like Nevvie [muchly].
Nevvie is a brave and talented theatre actress.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would probably talk to her!
I think Nevvie should be more confident in her acting.
Nevvie needs a hug. :)
I want to squee over LoTR with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Pippin. ;)
Someday, I think Nevvie will be famous.
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:12 pm (UTC)Nevvie is outrageous.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would faint.
I think Nevvie should direct my daughter's schoolplay cos the teachers who are doing it are fucking it up royally - (it's "Grease").
Nevvie needs me in her life.
I want to have coffee on 22nd March with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of sunshine.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be a big star and she will remember her Trianne and introduce her to Sir Ian and Michael and (gulp) Elijah.
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:12 pm (UTC)The Morgan thing: its all i expect from them really with their fascist studenty regime. Fuckers.
Ok another one of those thingies...
I admire Nevvie.
Nevvie is a super fluffy fiend!.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ask her about the habbits of Hobbits.
I think Nevvie should be in a rock 'n rool band.
Nevvie needs floofing.
I want to see a stage performance featuring Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of fun, sparkly things, and lord of the rings.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be up there in lights.
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:15 pm (UTC)You think I'm confident? Whoaaaaa. *giggles shyly*
I know it's 'another one of those thingies'. I honestly couldn't help myself, my curiousity is insatiable! :D
Sparkly things and LOTR! You've got me sussed girl. *grins*
I've always wanted to be in a band. *floofs!*
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:20 pm (UTC)>I aspire to be Nevvie.
*gulps* Wow. I love you Trinny. You are so good to me.
>If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would faint.
*laughs* But then I could give you the kiss of life!
>I think Nevvie should direct my daughter's schoolplay cos the teachers who are doing it are fucking it up royally - (it's "Grease").
Yeahhh! I haven't directed anything in years, I'm itching to do it again! Pay for my trainfare and I'm there. ;-)
>Nevvie needs me in her life.
Yes. I absolutely do. *squeezes tight*
>When I think of Nevvie, I think of sunshine.
Wheee!
>Someday, I think Nevvie will be a big star and she will remember her Trianne and introduce her to Sir Ian and Michael and (gulp) Elijah
*laughs* If I ever hobnob with the stars, you will be invited to all the best parties. And I'll make sure Elijiah is there and waiting for you, perhaps with leather, or maybe nothing at all...;-)
I like you muchly too! *pounce* :D
Date: 2003-03-05 05:23 pm (UTC)Nevvie = Pippin. Wooohooo! That's how I dearly hope I come across, because he means so much to me, and I feel like we're kindred spirits.
I definately need to be more confident with my acting. *kicks self hard*
*huuuuuuuuug!*
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:25 pm (UTC)Hee! I love the word 'nifty'. And it is very me. :)
>I think Nevvie should stay exactly as she is.
*blush!*
Mmmmm Neil. *drool*
I would scare Billeh SO MUCH if I met him, because I really would glomp him till be suffocated or passed out, or called security, possibly all three. *laughs*
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:32 pm (UTC)I ((am inspired by)) Nevvie.
Nevvie is ((so much fun)).
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ((have long, funny talks with her)).
I think Nevvie should ((kidnap Billy Boyd and keep him in her basement;))).
Nevvie needs ((more self-esteem)).
I want to ((move to New Zealand with)) Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of ((London and mischief-making)).
Someday, I think Nevvie will ((be famous)).
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:32 pm (UTC)Nevvie is witty & terribly interesting!.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would watch Lord of the Rings with her.
I think Nevvie should lose weight if it makes her feel better about her and not for anyone else..
Nevvie needs a hobbit of her very own.
I want to continue learning/reading about Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of pervy hobbit fanciers.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be successful in whatever craft she persues.
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:49 pm (UTC)Nevvie is quite an inspiration and source of entertainment.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would giggle and do something stupid.
I think Nevvie should write a book.
Nevvie needs her own *real* Hobbits.
I want to actually meet Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of laughter and fun.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be a Diva. *g*
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Date: 2003-03-05 05:50 pm (UTC)Nevvie is fun.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would start a pillow fight.
I think Nevvie should stop worrying about what others think of her.
Nevvie needs to visit us in the States.
I want to hug Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of bouncing furry things.
Someday, I think Nevvie will break a lot of hearts.
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Date: 2003-03-05 06:08 pm (UTC)Anyhoo, good luck with the diet. All you have to do is change a few of your habits. Eat out less (you'll save money too), cut down on choccies, cut down on sugar (it's so good but so bad!), get your Starbucks with non-fat milk, drink diet pop...........you know. All that stuff.
Anyhoo, now this
I miss Nevvie.
Nevvie is what I aspire to be ;).
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would probably be crying over LotR.
I think Nevvie should be more happy with the wonderful person she is.
Nevvie needs ME!!
I want to catch Billeh and send him in a box to Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of all my wonderful time in England.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be Queen of Summertime!
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Date: 2003-03-05 06:21 pm (UTC)I _am glad that I met___ Nevvie (as much as one can online).
Nevvie is _spiffy___.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would __probably give into my annoying habit of being so shy I seem snobbish. I'm intimidated by people who are cooler than me._____
I think Nevvie should __do a US tour. ___
Nevvie needs ___to whack these silly gits in the store and the theatre circles over the heads with a steel pipe so that they learn the magnitude of her spiffiness.___
I want to __ if I end up in London, go see__________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of __Billeh. And recently, Douglas Adams and kakapos_____.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ___Prove all of those "you'd be great if you were thinner" morons wrong. 'cos she's already great._____
you didn't ask but...
Date: 2003-03-05 06:30 pm (UTC)if you don't mind my advice...if you really decide to do it,don't 'go on a diet'. instead,change your habits.eating too little soon results in retaining weight.
about twelve years ago, i was on the heavy side. i was having digestive problems and i didnt want to take drugs or have stupid g.i. tests. so i changed my diet and eventually lost somewhere in the neighborhood of 80 or so lbs. in the course of year. i'm still pretty much at the same weight now because i changed how i ate. what worked for me was to cut down on fat grams (though you shouldn't cut all fat out of your diet...you NEED some. for a while i counted fat grams and tried to keep it around 44 per day. eventually i didn't have to count anymore because my body KNEW what was too high in fat. i have to not go too crazy on total calories either...which basically means total amount of food. i DO have a problem with eating sugar,which occasionally increases my weight a bit and then i usually cut back a bit on the sugar eating and it goes pretty much back to where it was. i dont' step on a scale very often...i go by how my clothes fit.
so there it is...my unsolicited advice.just thought i'd pass it along as i was fortunate to have it work for me.
but whatever you decide,in the immortal words of mr. rogers "i like you just the way you are".
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Date: 2003-03-05 06:30 pm (UTC)AND OMMMGGGGG - that website is WONDERFUL!!! I LOVE BRITAIN! Please let me move there, I promise to try hard to be on the Cheese Racing Olympic Team - please!!! (people are thinking that I am being sarcastic here, when I am really dead serious :) )
I hate to love Nevvie. But can't help myself.
Nevvie is beautiful.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would *censored*.
I think Nevvie should visit me in Hawaii.
Nevvie needs a good shag. (ha, Kidding! ;) the blank should say "to believe in herself" )
I want to MEET Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of puppies and kittens and fleece blankets and warm fuzzy socks.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be an international superstar. And then I'll be able to say "I know her, I helped MOLD her! Wait, or was that I left mold in her fridge? Hmm."
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Date: 2003-03-05 06:57 pm (UTC)Nevvie is __very nice__.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would __be shy___.
I think Nevvie should __act!_.
Nevvie needs __love__.
I want to _____huggle_____ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of __Neil Gaiman and Neverwhere___.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ___act in a big production___.
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Date: 2003-03-05 07:24 pm (UTC)With the diet thing - I hear you, I hear you. Clothes shops are evil. And I'm not even all that oddly shaped, just big. *flamethrowers retail chains especially*
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Date: 2003-03-05 07:27 pm (UTC)Nevvie is fabulous.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would scheme hobbit-napping with her.
I think Nevvie should tell the shopkeeper at that skinny-people store to go to hell.
Nevvie needs fat-free, convincingly chocolate-flavored celery.
I want to trade book piles with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of putting the letter "u" in words in which it is not normally found in this country.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be a Broadway star. Or a famous person on the London stage, if she prefers.
Always willing to play along. ;)
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Date: 2003-03-05 07:33 pm (UTC)Sansudutu!
I am frequently amuzzled by Nevvie.
Nevvie is fedinately interesting.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would be amazzled acos lal her other friends aren't squished into the same room, or mazbe they have lal gone invisible liek... wraiths... *oops*
I think Nevvie should give her business to clothing stores that aren't snobbay and knot let them bother her even a lille bit.
Nevvie needs no king. (Srroz. Possessed by Boromir fro a second.)
I want to send CHOKLIT to Nevvie. (But I guess I won't acos she's on a diet.)
When I think of Nevvie, I think of sparkliness.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be a hyooge star.
--
Banazir
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Date: 2003-03-05 08:00 pm (UTC)Nevvie is a quintessence of cuteness.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would leave and go shopping with her for clothing larger than size 6 and Elrond action figures
I think Nevvie should do what she wants.
Nevvie needs no more adorableness because she has quite enough ^^.
I want to visit Britain with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Neverwhere, unicorns, and pink.
Someday, I think Nevvie will become a pretty and greatness actress, despite what the dumb people at the fancy Clothe store say >.<.a
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Date: 2003-03-05 08:41 pm (UTC)Nevvie is violent and beats me.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would huddle in a corner and scram for help.
I think Nevvie should take anger management classes.
Nevvie needs psychological help.
I want to run away from Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of pain.
Someday, I think Nevvie will kill me.
lol *huggles Nevvie tight*
You know i can't resist.. you used to leave huge discolourations all over my legs.. that last one you gave me lasted for 3 weeks after i got home.. hehe it's a good thing you're so cute and Nevvilicious or i'd have to kick your ass ;)
okies.. sleepy time.. byebye
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Date: 2003-03-05 08:45 pm (UTC)Nevvie is my hero.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ask for Nevvie's autograph.
I think Nevvie should be put on a pedestal.
Nevvie needs to be admired by all.
I want to be Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of the stars.
Someday, I think Nevvie will have a star on the walk of fame.
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Date: 2003-03-05 08:56 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-05 09:14 pm (UTC)Nevvie is a cute ickle hobbit who can sing, act and dance.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ask her to sing.
I think Nevvie should pay a visit to her father in California so that I can meet her.
Nevvie needs realize what an incredible person she is, inside and out.
I want to glomp Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of laughter, happiness.
Someday, I think Nevvie will
snog Pippinbecome famous.