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Today is Canada Day, which of course made me think nostalgically about how one year ago I was in the Canadian Embassy in London looking like a total prat (although a very happy one ;-) with the best canucky friends a girl could ever have, wreibyn and eyre_lasgalen. Those were the days. *wistful sigh*


I'm determined not to be upset by the number of people who have been taking me off their friends lists lately. I hope it's just due to the fact that I don't post very often anymore, and not because I've suddenly turned into the world's most boring person. I feel terribly guilty about neglecting this journal, but there's not much I can do about it, as I don't have regular internet access anymore, and what access I do have is on a time limit. I feel like I'm losing touch with all my friends -- it's hard enough being so damn far away from everyone, but without being able to maintain constant contact I can feel my friendships slipping away. And I feel horrible about it.


Sometimes I don't mind the fact that I have no life and no friends. I just deal. Unfortunately last friday night was not one of those times. Not long after I moved into my new flat, another person moved in to the other empty apartment across from me. When I moved in, no one even said hello, or 'welcome' or anything, and still no one even smiles at me if we meet passing in the courtyard. Friday night nearly everyone else who lives in the building went over to Newboy's flat and chatted amiably, doing all that getting to know you stuff. And then it turned into a party. A party to welcome the New Guy. I was absolutely devastated, convinced this was just further proof that I am an invisible non-entity, destined to live her life friendless and alone. I cried non-stop for a full half hour (I know because I sobbed through an entire episode of The Simpsons) and felt sorry for myself for hours. I felt stupid and ashamed for letting myself get so emotional, but I couldn't stop. Gah. Am such a melodramatic twat sometimes. *kicks self hard*


In other news...I don't suppose there's anyone around who'd like to see Tori Amos with me at the Greek Theatre in L.A next month? Assuming I can get the tickets of course. *grins*
Also, is anyone else going to the San Diego Comic-Con? I'll be driving down for one day, I just don't know which one yet, as I'm waiting for Neil Gaiman to post his itinerary on his journal. I assume it'll be saturday though. Oh come on. Someone else must be going!


I started reading Redwall yesterday, which I think was recommended to me by brandybuck (as most good things are). I thought it was rather slow going at first, but now I'm really enjoying the story and characters, especially (of course) Winifred the Otter. Does she ever get her own book? *G* Matthias is a charming, if stereotypical 'unlikely hero', and all the Redwall denizens are delightful. Except of course the rats. (Sorry trukkle dear. ;-)




TONKS!!! I love Tonks! HUZZAH! I wish she could get her own spin-off series, that would be so wicked. *laughs* She's so much like me! Sweet and clumsy and has PURPLE HAIR! (Well, for a bit anyway.) How could I not fall head over heels in love? :)

Mrs Figg has given us rather conclusive proof that Squibs do indeed retain a smattering of magickal abilities, as they can have their own Familiar. I wonder if a Squib's familiar has to have name with Mr or Mrs in it, or if it's just a strange coincidence.

We still don't know why Dumbledore had that quiet triumph in his eyes at the end of GoF. I hope it's something shocking, to make up for the 'Duh' factor of the Prophecy. And someone really needs to write about Neville as the Boy Who Lived. Yes, I know I don't like fanfiction, but since JK won't write it, we need to speculate somehow. *grins*

Hermione's patronus is an OTTER! YAYYYY!!! I always knew I was so much like Hermione (especially, I'm rather ashamed to admit, in the first book -- I was such a bratty brainy know-it-all when I was younger) but this really is conclusive proof. *loves Hermy to ickle bits* :D



Oy veysmir, this is long. Well, I suppose that's what I get for not updating every day. You don't mind, do you? ;-)

Comments

[mlfoley.livejournal.com]

*huggles Nevvie*. I know that lonely feeling all too well :(

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Whinge.

Why do you have to be in Florida so we can't bemoan our outcast state together?

*squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze*

[buongiornodaisy.livejournal.com]

*glomps*

Yeah, that SUX. If I were over there I'd give you some comp'nee, even though I don't know what good it would do since I'm not a conversationalist. ;) Just hang in there. Someone will come! :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*pouncenoodles*

Is it too much to ask that the someone be named either Alan, Adrien or Billeh? ;-)

[marp2003.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Don't be sad. You're not alone (in being alone, that is). I'm lonely, too.

And yes, Tonks is the bomb diggity. She is the shiznit. Fo shizzle.

*huggizzles*

*squish!*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

Fo shizzle mah nizzle, aiiiiight!

Ermm. Or something like that. ;-)

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry, dude. I know all about being a melodramatic prat myself, and wouldn't wish it on anybody. I can assure you that people taking you off their friends list aren't doing it because you're boring, though.

And yep, I agree with you on Tonks and the coolness of Hermione, too. :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the reassurance Soupydear. *kissonnanose* :)

[moondroplette.livejournal.com]

wah

those other people suck

you are so terribly cool! ^_^

[amaterasu.livejournal.com]

No, of course I don't mind! The longer the better--it makes up for all the waiting-with-baited-breath.

So, I guess the question is, do you mind being friends with someone who has breath that smells like bait?



*huggles*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

Depends on what sort of boy I can catch with that bait...;-)

*smoooch!*

[kire-2004.livejournal.com]

When I read that part in OotP about Hermione's patronus being an otter, all I could think about was you. ;)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*squeal!*

Awww, that is so sweet! *blushes happily*

[eyre-lasgalen.livejournal.com]

*huggles* I also feel terribly friendless and alone. I'm sorry......

About Canada day, that's today. Not yesterday. ;) We did look like prats, didn't we? But it was fun, and deffinitely one of the best days in London, even if we couldn't get into the Maple Leaf. There are worse things than not getting into a pub.

OotP thought - I still don't understand why Dumbledore's howler to Petunia said "remember my last". His last what? Perhaps I missed something of Dumbledore's explanation at the end. I do need to read it again.

Yeah, well, so I guess that's it. I wish I could come and visit you. Wouldn't that be the coolest? I wonder what it costs to fly to LA? I'll check on that. Cheers!

My stepfather's not mean, he's just adjusting

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

'Remember my last....' words? instructions? Threats? It was a bit hazy actually. I'm sure we'll learn more later on in the series. (Wheee!)

I watched Death to Smoochy today, in case you couldn't tell. *grins* It is you that likes it, right? If not, I can see how you would, as it's a black comedy and very Aly-esque. *grins* I can also see how it was totally panned, as most people don't understand exactly what 'black comedy' means (tossers), and don't think it's PC to shoot a children's tv show character. I thought Smoochy was rather adorable actually. And those songs are toooooo cute. *G* (Also, Edward Norton = HOTARSE. *lick* ;-)

*squeezes you tight* Don't worry love, we'll see each other again soon. Somehow.
Oh yes, it will be done. :)

[brandybuck.livejournal.com]

For the longest time, I wanted to be an otter like nothing else in the world -- wait'll you meet Skipper and Shadow and every other one in the series. But then I finally accepted my destiny -- I don't know if you've gotten this far, but if anyone was ever a hare, it's me. *preens*

*HUGS* I'm sorry the rest of your apartment is a puddle of poo. The day Adrien, Alan, and Billy all stop by with flowers and limosines begging for your attention, they'll be sorry, oh yes, Precious.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

Yes, I did think Esther-like thoughts when reading about Mr Stag Hare. ;-)

I got it from the library yesterday afternoon and would have finished it last night if I hadn't suddenly decided to watch dvds instead. Sometimes these moods just wash over me, y'know? *grins* I'm at the part where Matthias has just escaped from the JarJar-esque 'Sparras'. Warbeak and Dunwing are nice, I just wish their speech didn't make me cringe.
I like Constance the Badger. She kicks arse. *G*
(But of course nothing's better than an otter! I'm so pleased to know there are more to meet -- thanks for giving me incentive to read more of the series love. ;-)

[misslunakitty.livejournal.com]

Tooooooooooooooooooooonks!!! Bubblegum Pink hair ! yay !

And empathy with the lonliness. i have 1 friend here and she is too busy working and being pregnant to spend much (any) time with me. :\ i've never been overtly social and usually prefer my solitude, but my stars! :( Thank goodness my kitty doesn't seem to get sick of me, since i have no one else to hang out with outside my family. *siiighs*

*hugz*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I am about to say something horribly trendy, please forgive me --

Tonks ownz me.

*giggles*

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

You have more people on your friends list than anyone else I know; I can't believe you still think of yourself as unpopular, even if you lose a few hangers-on of late.

*loves Redwall* *loves Redwall muchly* *especially Basil*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*blushes crimson*

Well.

I know you're right. I know you're right. I just have so many nagging self-doubts (as well as physical evidence that I am unpopular, re: friday night for example) that I don't even see the glaringly obvious. Isn't my therapy supposed to have cured this by now? *laughs* ;-)

I knew you were a Redwall fan. I could just tell it was definitely an Ashfae sort of book. *grins*

*hugs you lots*

[jrivka.livejournal.com]

when we saw hermione's patronus my reaction went something like:
;IOASDUGBF'DSOIHFZPIUDFHNSSDKFHSD OMG NEVVIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111, and such. and also, there's a fountain behind my library with an otter. and stuff. -bounces-

-snogs you-

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

YAYYY!!!

I am SO happy that I am associated with ottery goodness. Bleee! *swishes ottah tail and dives for fishies* :D

*snoglickgrope!*

We never talk anymore. This must be remidied. *snoggle*

[blantoncirith.livejournal.com]

oh, is that the one with Cluny the Scourge? :/

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Yes indeedy!

And Matthias the Brave, Constance the Big Scary (but on the side of Gooooooood) Badger, and lots of other fun critters.

[trianne.livejournal.com]

(((((((Nevvie)))))))))))
I wish you were meeting up with me and Kia tomorrow. I wish you were here for Independence Day and stuff. I wish you were still in London and we were going to see Kenneth Brannagh's play.. I miss you. I WILL come see you one day. Till then, take care and big hugs. xx

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*snifflesigh*

I wish all those things too. So very, very much.

I am trying to sweet talk my way to London for Christmas. I desperately want to be at the London ROTK premiere, among other things. I will see you soon, my precioussss.

Am not mentioning how insanely jealous of Kia I am right now. Lucky bitch. ;-)

[airemay.livejournal.com]

Waah. I wish I could go to Comic-Con. But Nimbus shall be lots of fun. I'll come see Tori Amos with you, even though I have heard barely any of her music. *G* I never get to talk to you! I still maintain that you should come down and visit me, or I will have to drive up and come and kidnap you. We could feed you and adore you. Hee, maybe you could come down when I do Godspell and/or Tempest. I get to run around in a very small bikini in the latter. :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Ooooh bikini. Sounds like a wild ride. ;-)

Do you really want to come see Tori with me? It'd be such a schlep for you to come up here, but of course I'd love to have you. I need to know asap so I can find out if there are any tickets left. Let me know!

*squeeeeeeeeze*

[sheldrake.livejournal.com]

Oh Nevvie, I'm so sorry you're feeling lonely. You're way too fun and lovely to be alone - people do not know what they're missing out on. Fools!

Hmm. I suppose these things are all relative - I just felt lonely because I offered someone a cup of tea, and they said yes, and then they changed their mind and went off to do something else. Er... but I feel that probably says more about my state of mind today than anything else.

Yes. I'm rambling. Anyway, I hope things cheer up for you soon. Are you getting out much - meeting people? *worries about you*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I would never refuse a cuppa from a lovely crimson haired Goddess like you. What a stoopid person. *kicks him*

*snuggles* I'm okay really. I'm not really meeting anyone yet, but I'm still keeping an eye out for societies or fun gatherings where I might find like minded people...*crosses fingers*

*hughughug*

[storme]

Yay Redwall! Yay Tonks! And, most importantly, yay you!

We still love you, Nevviekins.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*blushsqueee*

Thanks love! :D

[ixwin.livejournal.com]

*hugs and snuggles*

Is there any way to increase your online time? Finding a cheap internet cafe or something? It's just it sounds like you could do with a bit more support and Nevvie cheerleading & this is where you'll find it.

And I can't believe New Boy has anything you don't. P'raps he already knew some of the people in the block & they dragged the others along. Or maybe people just reckoned you were a quiet type who'd prefer to be left alone. Are there residents' meetings or anything you could go along to (they'll probably be boring, but you would get the chance to chat to the other tenants afterwards and get to know each other a bit). Failing that, I think you just have to keep determinedly smiling and saying "Hi" to people even if they don't respond at first.

And for what it's worth, you're in no danger of dropping off my friends list...

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Hee, thanks for the friends-list reassurance, I think every little ego boost helps at the moment. ;-)

There aren't any internet cafes around, and no way of increasing library online time, since there's always a big queue. My father keeps promising to give me his old computer but he never does, and it's really beginning to upset me. Grr. Arrgh.

I usually have my door open because it's such a safe place, and the weather is so nice, so I don't think I'm putting off any 'stay away' vibes, but maybe you're right about them thinking I'm a quiet type who likes to keep to herself. There aren't any residence meetings or anything like that, but alot of times people gather in the courtyard to talk. I just need to get the courage to join in sometime I guess. *grins sheepishly*

*squeeeeze*

[mirabehn.livejournal.com]

*huggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggs* you!

I know that lonely feeling far too well - really sympathise. :(

I miss your frequent posts, but they're always worth reading when they do arrive on the scene, so the people who've deleted you are clearly silly.

By the way, we've finally got some photos back, including a lovely one of you and Nick on Watership Down!! When we've finished sorting the house out having arrived back from holiday we'll scan it in and send it to you. *grin*

Hurrah for Tonks!! I love her too. In fact I think I agree with most of the comments you've made about OOTP so far...

*hugs you and sends you nakedBilleh! to play with*

lots of love,

Cousin Merry

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm nekkidbillehhhh...*drool* :D

I can't wait to see the pictures! Hurry up and get things sorted! *giggles*

*pounces on you and tickles playfully*

Miss you muchly coz! *snugglesmooch*

[akira114.livejournal.com]

*Hugz Nevvie*
About those in your flat: It's not your problem. It's never your problem. They're just a bunch of worthless, unappreciative bastards. And that's the truth. If they can't see you as even existing, they really don't deserve to live. Some people just can't be pleased. Some people are so shallow, vain, and just plain fucked up, they can never see what really matters. You're a very special person, and I'm lucky to have you as a friend. We may not talk often, but the times I have, you've been just a glowing, warm, friendly all-around great person. Don't you give them another thought.

*big hugs*

Akira

[ezzyangel.livejournal.com]

I agree with ash, look at al your lj friends? Won't you call tha popular?
I wish I could have got to know you better, you are such a uber cool person.
*hugs*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*blushes*

Just ask Ash -- she's lived with me (well, near me) and can tell you all kinds of horror stories. *grins*

[annundriel.livejournal.com]

Just popping in to say I don't think you're boring. And believe me, I know boring. You brighten up my rather stark friends page. :)

Also, there is one place that misses you terribly. The Playgroupers aren't sure what to do without Nevvie and her custard bazooka. I met up with VintageHobbit a week ago and whilst explaining The Crumpet to a newbie we lamented the fact that we haven't seen you. So, you see, you are very popular and missed horribly.

((Nevvie))

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I need to cheer up my Playgroupie comrades. I am such a bad, bad Hobbitgirl. *hangs head in shame*

I will go forth and splatter you all with custardy goodness! WHOOT! :D

[fringelement.livejournal.com]

*schnoogle*

mwah. we <3 you. we may be little psychotic fangirls you've never heard of, but we <3 you ne'ertheless. When's the Tori? I may be down visiting family next month...

wheeeeMatthias. He's a cardholding member of the Tragic Hero Club. and liek there's prophesies an swordsomg. and giant snakes of DOOM! :P

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I think Tori's 1 August, or maybe the 2nd. Definately around the start of the month though. :)

[ladystained.livejournal.com]

Hey Nev, I'm always around. We don't talk much, but I've been around for...oh, is it 2 years now? Wow. 2001 I was in HOL. Now it's 2003.

Anyway...

When I moved in, no one even said hello, or 'welcome' or anything, and still no one even smiles at me if we meet passing in the courtyard.

It is probably NOT you. It's probably the area; I come from the Chicago area, and I'm told that the people from this area aren't as friendly as some...I've heard that telemarketers and the such always know when they're talking to chicagoians because we DON'T talk about our dog or family or whatever...it's right down to business. We don't greet strangers while walking down the sidewalk either, most of the time. I believe it has something to do with (american, at least) urban crowding. To retain a semblance of privacy we ignore people unless we have to talk to them. I don't know about others, but personally I would NOT come poking my nose into the new neighbor's house. I would consider it rude, as they must be very busy (of course, I am also an introvert). And it very well may be that that other person was known to some of the people living at your new place (do a lot of college kids or similar live around you?). Anyway, what I was getting at is that your area, in California, might have that urban ignore-people-you-don't-know thing that Chicago has. I highly doubt it's you, unless they're put off by your british accent (you grew up in the UK, right?) and they have a hard time understanding you (before HP I had a hard time understanding certain british accents, because I was not exposed to them). But I don't know if that is the case or not, as I've never heard you speak! You might just have the misfortune to live in a complex of dorks after having moved across the pond (and across most of north america too) far away from england.

Anyway, online-age or not, I'm still around and you're firmly on my friends' list. :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for your kind words Japetha. *hugs tight* :))

[trukkle.livejournal.com]

*Pounce-Roll-Snugglehugs-an'-kissesyournose!*

*Gives extra huga and love 'cos of your stoopeed living-in-same-apartment-block people

Those Redwall rats are harmless really, just misunderstood or psycopathic... They just need an extra bit of cheese and a cuddle or a knock around the head to bring them around *Grins*

*loads of snuggles hugs and licks from the ratties and a extra long huggle from me*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I don't really want to cuddle Cluny or any of his horde. Sorry. :-P

I'll cuddle YOU though!

*pouncerollsqueeeeeeeerollbounceooooffallover* :D