'Not all tears are an evil'...but this is getting ridiculous

[neverwhere]

I have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.


I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*


You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)

Comments

don't worry

[threerings.livejournal.com]

I preface this with: I'm drunk.
So, I felt that way after I saw ROTK the 2nd time. Drained, exhausted, depressed, so transformed and taken away that I couldn't come back. Of course the third time I saw it I was so distracted by the horrible audience, the movie stopping in the middle, the lights coming on in the theater and the sound being WAY too loud that I was just kinda pissed. So if you have a really bad experince it may free you from the emotions. And I'm not at all worried about your sanity. Trust me, I know about the attachment to fictional stuff. For fuck's sake I couldn't watch FOTR without crying for a while. (see icon) And you don't have to say goodbye. My life feels like it's been wrapped up with LOTR since I was 11 and read it. It doesn't go away. It doesnt have to end. Ok, I stop typing now. Big HUGS to Nevvie!

This is not exactly how I would have prefered we get re-aquainted. ;-)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I saw FOTR 34 times in the cinema and managed to cry when Gandalf fell and/or when Sam follows Frodo into the water for at least 3/4 of those viewings. Eeeep. *giggles sheepishly*

I saw that you're drunk because of The Shrub. I have been studiously avoiding all such contact with him. ;-)

*SQUISH*

Re: This is not exactly how I would have prefered we get re-aquainted. ;-)

[threerings.livejournal.com]

Are you kidding? This is the perfect way to get reacquainted (whew, big word). Bonding over silly and inappropriate reactions to fiction are my bread and butter. I still can't take Gandalf falling. It killed me in the book and it kills me in the movie. Hi, what could be more embarrassing than being in love with Gandalf?