'Not all tears are an evil'...but this is getting ridiculous

[neverwhere]

I have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.


I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*


You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)

Comments

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

>there are people out there who can't get anything emotionally meaningful from books

I know, and I despair for them. I can't even begin to imagine life without my books, who have been my constant companions though every stage of my life. When I was friendless and alone, all I had to do was turn a page and my friends would appear to entertain and comfort me. It's why I'm so affected by fictional characters, whether in a book or on the screen, because I've been lonely for so much of my life, and I knew I could always turn to them for solace and love.

[myf.livejournal.com]

Have you read Inkheart by Cornelia Funke? I have just started it, and I adore it already because Meggie, the 12-year-old main character, is just like us. She loves her books because they're her oldest friends, her home. It's a wonderful way to be, so let's cherish it.

Hurrah for us booklovers. We have lots of old friends

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid I've never even heard of it, but tomorrow I shall get it from the library. It sounds perfect. :)

*smooooooch*

[myf.livejournal.com]

It's quite new, and is probably under YA fiction or junior fiction. I'm only a couple of chapters in, and I love it already.

*tickles Neffie's toes*