'Not all tears are an evil'...but this is getting ridiculous

[neverwhere]

I have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.


I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*


You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)

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[leiabelle.livejournal.com]

It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

Oh man, I'm so with you here. First time I read the book, at 11 years old, I cried because there wasn't any more. I must admit that I didn't care for PJ's depiction of the ending, but so much else of the movie, as well as the story itself, hit me very hard. I sobbed my way through the first viewing of RotK and cried a lot at the second. Curiously enough it's the battle scenes that really bring on the tears. The Rohirrim screaming "DEATH!" gives me the chills, as does Faramir's doomed attack on Osgiliath contrasted with Pippin singing. Am waiting for the Extended to come out before I see it again because I'm desperate for the Eowyn/Faramir and it makes me sad that it was left out, but my heart aches every time I read the end of the book. Into the West makes me want to curl up into a little hobbity ball and weep. It's hopeful... but not. :'(

*huggles muchly*

I know that whatever you do, it will be great and wonderful. Your Road is still going on. (Don't tempt me to post the lyrics to that song!) :D

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

>The Rohirrim screaming "DEATH!" gives me the chills, as does Faramir's doomed attack on Osgiliath contrasted with Pippin singing.

Me too. I can't imagine how anyone can not be deeply moved by the sacrafice of the Rohan and Gondorian soldiers, when they know there is no hope, yet never turn away from their doom...*long admiring sigh*
And Pippin's song...oh gods, it just leaves me breathless. The futile battle for a father's love, the bittersweet threnody...it's just perfect.

...

Behind me the television is on, and some one is singing on Jay Leno about 'an American soldier', and all I can think is that this pseduo-patrotic drivel can not even begin to compare in scope and meaning to The Steward of Gondor, and the courage of the outnumbered army of Men.