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neverwhereI'm going on a diet.
It needs to be done. I have been told far too many times to count that if only I were thinner I would never have any problems getting work -- agents would be disembowelling each other at a chance to have me on their books, because I'm cute, energetic, passionate, friendly and a genuinely nice person, something which is (believe me) is a rare find in the theatre world, and of course have great singing and acting abilities. But wrap all that talent and personality in a roly poly pudding like me, and they won't even give me a second glance. It's okay to be big, as long as you're REALLY big, like Dawn French big, but medium big like me will get you nowhere, just the occasional serving wench and possibly the 'skinny lead girl's fat best friend'. Hurrah. So I really am going on a diet now. Besides, I think I will have a nervous breakdown if I have to go clothes shopping again and leave every single damn store empty handed because not a thing fits me. Fat girl clothes don’t fit because I'm too short and bulge in all the wrong places (everyone is supposed to have a specific body shape, like the Apple [big on top, thin hips and legs], Pear [big hips and thighs] and Hourglass [big everywhere, thin waist], but I'm a fucking rectangle -- thick ankles, big thighs, absolutely no definition between hips and waist, big chest -- and there is not a goddamn thing made by ANYone that can match my body shape. If I at least had some kind of curves like normal fat women, I'd be happier. It's the fact that I'm so bloody unnatural that really upsets me) and of course I can't even think of entering a 'normal' store, because they'd probably throw me out. I was thrown out of Morgan, a snottily discriminating clothes shop, once, where they don't have anything above a size 8 (that's a US 4-6) because they don't want 'fat girls wearing their clothes'. Nice, huh. Anyway. What was I saying? I have no idea. I am probably just waffling on quite a bit because I'm extremely annoyed right now. Sorry. The point I'm trying to make is, I need to go on a diet. Or at least, a 'reduced food intake regime'. Yeah, that sounds better, doesn't it. :)
I'm currently reading a book daringly entitled I, Lucifer, which, not unsurprisingly, earns me alot of strange looks reading it on the train. It's an autobiography from the Morningstar's point of view, and although I thought it was a bit pretentious at first, I'm rather enjoying it. Lucifer is portrayed as a very camp, sarcastic, charming and utterly British protagonist (antagonist? Hard to say really), which makes it quite difficult not to think of Crowley when reading him, but of course I like Crowley a lot more, mostly because although he's a daemon, he's a nice guy really. Lucifer, however, is not. I would probably recommend this book to anyone who likes Good Omens, but you should be warned that the language is exceedingly filthy at times, although the writer (or should I say, Lucifer) has the most marvellous gift for hyperbole, and the descriptions of the every day world as seen through the senses of an Angel are remarkably beautiful.
I'm a little bit sad that an LJ friend has taken me off her friendslist because she doesn't find my journal interesting. You can say alot of things about me, quite a few of them negative I'm sure, but I always thought I was interesting. Ah well. Her loss, neh? :)
Great Britian: Birthplace of Cheese Racing. Oh, how I love this country. *laughs*
Okay. You knew it was going to happen. I don't normally leap on the proverbial bandwagon like this, but I just can't resist.
Please do answer, and give this silly hobbit wench a happy. *grins*
I ____ Nevvie.
Nevvie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would _______.
I think Nevvie should _____.
Nevvie needs ______.
I want to ____________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of _______.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ________.
It needs to be done. I have been told far too many times to count that if only I were thinner I would never have any problems getting work -- agents would be disembowelling each other at a chance to have me on their books, because I'm cute, energetic, passionate, friendly and a genuinely nice person, something which is (believe me) is a rare find in the theatre world, and of course have great singing and acting abilities. But wrap all that talent and personality in a roly poly pudding like me, and they won't even give me a second glance. It's okay to be big, as long as you're REALLY big, like Dawn French big, but medium big like me will get you nowhere, just the occasional serving wench and possibly the 'skinny lead girl's fat best friend'. Hurrah. So I really am going on a diet now. Besides, I think I will have a nervous breakdown if I have to go clothes shopping again and leave every single damn store empty handed because not a thing fits me. Fat girl clothes don’t fit because I'm too short and bulge in all the wrong places (everyone is supposed to have a specific body shape, like the Apple [big on top, thin hips and legs], Pear [big hips and thighs] and Hourglass [big everywhere, thin waist], but I'm a fucking rectangle -- thick ankles, big thighs, absolutely no definition between hips and waist, big chest -- and there is not a goddamn thing made by ANYone that can match my body shape. If I at least had some kind of curves like normal fat women, I'd be happier. It's the fact that I'm so bloody unnatural that really upsets me) and of course I can't even think of entering a 'normal' store, because they'd probably throw me out. I was thrown out of Morgan, a snottily discriminating clothes shop, once, where they don't have anything above a size 8 (that's a US 4-6) because they don't want 'fat girls wearing their clothes'. Nice, huh. Anyway. What was I saying? I have no idea. I am probably just waffling on quite a bit because I'm extremely annoyed right now. Sorry. The point I'm trying to make is, I need to go on a diet. Or at least, a 'reduced food intake regime'. Yeah, that sounds better, doesn't it. :)
I'm currently reading a book daringly entitled I, Lucifer, which, not unsurprisingly, earns me alot of strange looks reading it on the train. It's an autobiography from the Morningstar's point of view, and although I thought it was a bit pretentious at first, I'm rather enjoying it. Lucifer is portrayed as a very camp, sarcastic, charming and utterly British protagonist (antagonist? Hard to say really), which makes it quite difficult not to think of Crowley when reading him, but of course I like Crowley a lot more, mostly because although he's a daemon, he's a nice guy really. Lucifer, however, is not. I would probably recommend this book to anyone who likes Good Omens, but you should be warned that the language is exceedingly filthy at times, although the writer (or should I say, Lucifer) has the most marvellous gift for hyperbole, and the descriptions of the every day world as seen through the senses of an Angel are remarkably beautiful.
I'm a little bit sad that an LJ friend has taken me off her friendslist because she doesn't find my journal interesting. You can say alot of things about me, quite a few of them negative I'm sure, but I always thought I was interesting. Ah well. Her loss, neh? :)
Great Britian: Birthplace of Cheese Racing. Oh, how I love this country. *laughs*
Okay. You knew it was going to happen. I don't normally leap on the proverbial bandwagon like this, but I just can't resist.
Please do answer, and give this silly hobbit wench a happy. *grins*
I ____ Nevvie.
Nevvie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would _______.
I think Nevvie should _____.
Nevvie needs ______.
I want to ____________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of _______.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ________.
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Date: 2003-03-06 12:17 am (UTC)You know you'll be gorgeous whatever size you are, hon.
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:23 pm (UTC)Hey you! *tacklepounce*
I thought you had forgotten about me. :)
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Date: 2003-03-06 12:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-06 03:35 pm (UTC)I shall endevour to do my best, and remember that I'm brilliant whether or no. *grins*
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Date: 2003-03-06 02:27 am (UTC)Eep! Good luck with the "reduced food intake regime", since you're taking it (I think you look fabby just as you are, but there you go... :) ). Let us all know how it goes, and I hope that the agents start disembowlling each other very soon!!!
Btw, although I'm a skinny wretch so have never dieted, Nick and I eat terrifyingly healthily a lot of the time, so if you want any very healthy but very, very delicious recipes, we can probably supply a few ideas! A diet being no excuse for nasty food, IMHO... ;)
I know exactly what you mean about the body shape thing. I have lots of trouble finding dresses to fit me, as I have quite wide hips and reasonably shapely thights but no boobs, so they are all either terribly tight from waist to knee, or you could fit a basketball down the front! Gah. But I can't believe you were thrown out of a shop... that's appalling! Actually, I can believe it. Grrrrrrr. I was once rather snarled at in Evans, when I had depression and was even thinner than I am now. But that's a little different.
eeeeee! Quizlet. Here goes:
-I adore Nevvie.
-Nevvie is amazing and wonderful and lovely.
-If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would talk to her about lots of things, especially hobbits and the Lord of the Rings Radio series and the Tolkien Ensemble!
-I think Nevvie should be in our sponsored read-through when we have it. Hint hint. :)
-Nevvie needs to have a little more self-confidence, and to be surrounded by people who love her as much as we all do!
-I want to meet up with Nevvie. Also I want to see her perform in something...
-When I think of Nevvie, I think of Pippin and pasta and music and snuggling.
-Someday, I think Nevvie will be in a film with Billy Boyd. And invite me to the premiere. *bats eyelashes* ;)
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:25 pm (UTC)New recipes would be wonderful, thanks love. :)
Was there any doubt that I would join your historic undertaking? Bring it on!
Mmmm snuggling. *snuggles* :))
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Date: 2003-03-06 02:43 am (UTC)good luck with the diet regime. *hug*
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Date: 2003-03-06 06:40 am (UTC)Nevvie is absurdly warm and friendly and we need more people like her in the world.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would do what we do every day, Pinky -- try to take over the world!.
I think Nevvie should go on a whirlwind tour of the States and meet all her American friends.
Nevvie needs some Billeh lovin'.
I want to see a play starring Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of fuzzy hobbit hugs.
Someday, I think Nevvie will live in a smial surrounded by cute little hobbits, with an endless supply of Old Toby.
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:27 pm (UTC)>I think Nevvie should go on a whirlwind tour of the States and meet all her American friends.
YES! Yesyesyes I do. Is next tuesday good for you? *giggles*
*pouncesqueeeze*
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Date: 2003-03-06 07:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-06 07:54 am (UTC)We need to go back to the days where everthing was custom-made for one.
Anyway, keep your chin up, Nevvie. :) You have a lot of people who like you...I mean, 30-some replides in your LJ? For one post? You're VERY well-loved. :)
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:30 pm (UTC)What can I say? I'm amazing. ;-)
Well, most of the time. *grins*
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Date: 2003-03-06 09:02 am (UTC)Nevvie is caring
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ask her what glomp means
I think Nevvie should be careful with diets
Nevvie needs to pass some of her luck of meeting famous people on to me! (why do I never see Alan Cumming in the street?!)
I want to see a play starring Nevvie. (sorry, I know it's been done once already!)
When I think of Nevvie, I think of hobbits, Neil Gaiman and for some reason, hair.
Someday, I think Nevvie will take over the asylum
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:33 pm (UTC)Glomp is an anime term -- a kind of superpounce hug usually performed by young girls on their best friends (think insane Sailor Moon girl and how she always greets her friends). An explosive supersqueeze. A running, tackle squish. I'm sure you know what I mean. *grins*
I do have rather alot of hair, so I suppose that isn't too suprising. *chuckles*
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Date: 2003-03-06 03:55 pm (UTC)Nevvie is glompable to the extreme!
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would advise the world to ph33r us, for we would Wreak Havoc.
I think Nevvie should have tea with the Marquis de Carabas.
Nevvie needs glitter-encrusted hobbits dancing on her kitchen table!
I want to stalk Neil Gaiman with Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of SMUT!
Someday, I think Nevvie will show me around London and we'll kick ass all over toooooowwwwn.
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Date: 2003-03-06 04:44 pm (UTC)> I would advise the world to ph33r us, for we would Wreak Havoc
I have absolutely no doubt that we would. Muahahahaha. *cackles*
>I think Nevvie should have tea with the Marquis de Carabas.
YES! Oh god, he's just too sexy. He is the sexiest beast who was ever created. I would turn into a gibbering miasma of lusty goo in his presence. *purrrr*
>When I think of Nevvie, I think of SMUT!
*LMAO!*
Aiiii, do you really?? I must confess that is probably the one thing I never thought I'd be associated with. *laughs* (But still, cooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool. ;-)
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Date: 2003-03-06 04:48 pm (UTC)Hehehe.
Speaking of smut -- my reply to your comment was #69.
Make of that what you will.
*grins lasciviously* ;-)
*grin*wink*
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Date: 2003-03-06 07:40 pm (UTC)I *like* Nevvie.
Nevvie is *fantastic!!!*.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, *we would probably giggle madly and/or drool over a certain Scottish hobbit actor* ;)
I think Nevvie should *receive more hugs!! (((Nevvie)))*.
Nevvie needs (see above).
I want to *go to London and visit* Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of *Haldir and the wood of manly elves...heehee*.
Someday, I think Nevvie will *be a wildly rich and famous actress*.
And LOL at the cheese racing :)
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Date: 2003-03-07 10:34 am (UTC)Evie!
You always seem to turn up when least expected. *giggles*
Waaaaaaah! I miss the Wood of Manly Elves! *wipes tear from eye*
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Date: 2003-03-07 03:44 pm (UTC)Nevvie is incredibly talented.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would ask her to recreate Buffy the Musical for me.
I think Nevvie should be on broadway.
Nevvie needs love herself just the way she is.
I want to tickle Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Billy and music and dancing and DivCom.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be famous and will give me an autograph.
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Date: 2003-03-07 04:05 pm (UTC)Yayy!
All veryvery good answers. Especially the 'she's so talented' bits. *grins*
*big hugs!* :D
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Date: 2003-03-07 08:58 pm (UTC)Nevvie is fantastically awesome.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would give her a biiig hug.
I think Nevvie should stop it with this dieting nonsense and just eat more chocolate.
Nevvie needs chocolate.
I want to hug and give chocolate to Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of happiness and hobbits and one of the first people who greeted me when I joined HOL.
Someday, I think Nevvie will be an amazingly-well known star. Or a hobbit-stalker. ;)
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Date: 2003-03-08 10:32 am (UTC)Awwww! *big hugs* :D
And I think Hobbit Stalker. Yes. *beams* ;-)
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Date: 2003-03-08 08:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-03-08 10:31 am (UTC)Mais bien sur, ma cherie. *bisse* :)
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Date: 2003-03-11 01:33 am (UTC)I heart Nevvie.
Nevvie is huggable.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would poing around a lot going "squee!"
I think Nevvie should poing around and go "squee!" with me.
Nevvie needs Billeh.
I want to hug Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Pippin.
Someday, I think Nevvie will see me again. =)
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Date: 2003-03-11 01:53 pm (UTC)*poing!* :D
Someday v.v.v.v.soon she will see you! *beams*
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Date: 2003-03-15 06:48 am (UTC)Nevvie is Super Nevvie of Ultra-cool spiffieness.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would dance and be happy..then I would eat a peanut.
I think Nevvie should moon the next person who turns you down because of a size matter. (make them remember you even more at least)
Nevvie needs a hug.
I want to go Cheese Racing, Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of Hobbits of course.
Someday, I think Nevvie will play the leading female in the movie/play adaptation of my books. (of course that would involve me getting off of my arse and sending it in wouldn't it?)
If I didn't like squandering money so much I would really hate shopping. You think you lost weight and can now go into a spiffin store you were looking forward to only to find out that maybe half an outfit will work but the fleshy part you sit on is still overly fleshy for most stores. Another thing is going shopping with a mother that always believes you to be 2 sizes larger than you are...great moral booster there. I always go shopping with the skinny friends too..or I stand in a store i couldn't get a toe into the sickingly paper clip thin clothing while she tries stuff on and next weekend I get to go prom dress shopping in the same enviroment...yay. Dress shopping is bad enough because of the lengths being too short for me *we seem to have the reverse problem for fat girl clothes* floor length dresses hit my ankles, I guess at least I wont trip.
I've heard of I, Lucifer! A few of my friends from band camp (Yes, one time at band camp. I know) have read it I do believe.
Well I do wish you luck on your reduced food intake regime. The closest I ever came to a successful diet was to put the chips on a high shelf where I would have to jump up and down several times to get them. Great exersise until you land on a cat.