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I'm going on a diet.

It needs to be done. I have been told far too many times to count that if only I were thinner I would never have any problems getting work -- agents would be disembowelling each other at a chance to have me on their books, because I'm cute, energetic, passionate, friendly and a genuinely nice person, something which is (believe me) is a rare find in the theatre world, and of course have great singing and acting abilities. But wrap all that talent and personality in a roly poly pudding like me, and they won't even give me a second glance. It's okay to be big, as long as you're REALLY big, like Dawn French big, but medium big like me will get you nowhere, just the occasional serving wench and possibly the 'skinny lead girl's fat best friend'. Hurrah. So I really am going on a diet now. Besides, I think I will have a nervous breakdown if I have to go clothes shopping again and leave every single damn store empty handed because not a thing fits me. Fat girl clothes don’t fit because I'm too short and bulge in all the wrong places (everyone is supposed to have a specific body shape, like the Apple [big on top, thin hips and legs], Pear [big hips and thighs] and Hourglass [big everywhere, thin waist], but I'm a fucking rectangle -- thick ankles, big thighs, absolutely no definition between hips and waist, big chest -- and there is not a goddamn thing made by ANYone that can match my body shape. If I at least had some kind of curves like normal fat women, I'd be happier. It's the fact that I'm so bloody unnatural that really upsets me) and of course I can't even think of entering a 'normal' store, because they'd probably throw me out. I was thrown out of Morgan, a snottily discriminating clothes shop, once, where they don't have anything above a size 8 (that's a US 4-6) because they don't want 'fat girls wearing their clothes'. Nice, huh. Anyway. What was I saying? I have no idea. I am probably just waffling on quite a bit because I'm extremely annoyed right now. Sorry. The point I'm trying to make is, I need to go on a diet. Or at least, a 'reduced food intake regime'. Yeah, that sounds better, doesn't it. :)


I'm currently reading a book daringly entitled I, Lucifer, which, not unsurprisingly, earns me alot of strange looks reading it on the train. It's an autobiography from the Morningstar's point of view, and although I thought it was a bit pretentious at first, I'm rather enjoying it. Lucifer is portrayed as a very camp, sarcastic, charming and utterly British protagonist (antagonist? Hard to say really), which makes it quite difficult not to think of Crowley when reading him, but of course I like Crowley a lot more, mostly because although he's a daemon, he's a nice guy really. Lucifer, however, is not. I would probably recommend this book to anyone who likes Good Omens, but you should be warned that the language is exceedingly filthy at times, although the writer (or should I say, Lucifer) has the most marvellous gift for hyperbole, and the descriptions of the every day world as seen through the senses of an Angel are remarkably beautiful.


I'm a little bit sad that an LJ friend has taken me off her friendslist because she doesn't find my journal interesting. You can say alot of things about me, quite a few of them negative I'm sure, but I always thought I was interesting. Ah well. Her loss, neh? :)


Great Britian: Birthplace of Cheese Racing. Oh, how I love this country. *laughs*


Okay. You knew it was going to happen. I don't normally leap on the proverbial bandwagon like this, but I just can't resist.
Please do answer, and give this silly hobbit wench a happy. *grins*


I ____ Nevvie.
Nevvie is ____.
If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would _______.
I think Nevvie should _____.
Nevvie needs ______.
I want to ____________ Nevvie.
When I think of Nevvie, I think of _______.
Someday, I think Nevvie will ________.

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[mirabehn.livejournal.com]

*huggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggs*

Eep! Good luck with the "reduced food intake regime", since you're taking it (I think you look fabby just as you are, but there you go... :) ). Let us all know how it goes, and I hope that the agents start disembowlling each other very soon!!!

Btw, although I'm a skinny wretch so have never dieted, Nick and I eat terrifyingly healthily a lot of the time, so if you want any very healthy but very, very delicious recipes, we can probably supply a few ideas! A diet being no excuse for nasty food, IMHO... ;)

I know exactly what you mean about the body shape thing. I have lots of trouble finding dresses to fit me, as I have quite wide hips and reasonably shapely thights but no boobs, so they are all either terribly tight from waist to knee, or you could fit a basketball down the front! Gah. But I can't believe you were thrown out of a shop... that's appalling! Actually, I can believe it. Grrrrrrr. I was once rather snarled at in Evans, when I had depression and was even thinner than I am now. But that's a little different.

eeeeee! Quizlet. Here goes:

-I adore Nevvie.
-Nevvie is amazing and wonderful and lovely.
-If I were alone in a room with Nevvie, I would talk to her about lots of things, especially hobbits and the Lord of the Rings Radio series and the Tolkien Ensemble!
-I think Nevvie should be in our sponsored read-through when we have it. Hint hint. :)
-Nevvie needs to have a little more self-confidence, and to be surrounded by people who love her as much as we all do!
-I want to meet up with Nevvie. Also I want to see her perform in something...
-When I think of Nevvie, I think of Pippin and pasta and music and snuggling.
-Someday, I think Nevvie will be in a film with Billy Boyd. And invite me to the premiere. *bats eyelashes* ;)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

New recipes would be wonderful, thanks love. :)

Was there any doubt that I would join your historic undertaking? Bring it on!

Mmmm snuggling. *snuggles* :))