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[neverwhere]

As I look out my window I can see that it is another gorgeous day at the beach. So why the hell am I inside wasting my life online? Oh wait, I have no life. That would be why. *chuckles* (Anyone have a spare life I can borrow?)

The One Party tickets go on sale tomorrow. Ohgodohgodohgod I really, desperately want to go, and now that I'm in L.A there's nothing to stop me, right? Nothing except the $125 I need to purchase a ticket. WHINGE! I've been dreaming about going for 2 years, how can I not go? Is anyone else here going? I know trianne wants to, but doesn't know yet if she can. I want to attend so badly, but I suppose if I don't know anyone there wouldn't be much point. I don't mingle and make friends easily (or at all) in social gatherings, so I may just end up feeling sorry for myself that I couldn't manage to have a good time even at such a momentous occasion. Yeah, I'm stupid that way.
I just don't know what to do.


On a more pleasant note -- thanks to the generosity of swankyfunk, I have a ticket to see Graham Norton this weekend! Woooohoooo! Aaaaaaand I'm allowed to bring a guest. Anyone in the L.A/O.C area like Graham and want to come to Hollywood with me on sunday? I adore Graham Norton, even though I know someone who shagged him in a Disco and said it was just 'okay'. *snort* ;-)


I don't think I've squeed yet about my TT:EE dvd, so here it is, short and sweet: OMGILOVEFLOATSAMANDJETSOMANDWHEEEEMOREELVISHANDMORELOTRGOODNESSHURRAH!

And I'm spent.

Comments

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

Um, darling, what are you talking about? You have social skills and charisma in abundance; this is not bias but a clear fact, because if you didn't have them you wouldn't know so many frikking people! ALL YOU'RE LACKING IS CONFIDENCE. That's it. I truly believe that the whole world would be yours if you just accepted tha you've got the ability to reach out and grab it. You're one of the most charismatic people I have ever met, no exagerration. You think that friends list is so long and you get so many comments just because people want to ogle your Tori icons?

If you persist in believing that you have no l33t ocializing skills in person, so what? Work online. No problem. Internet taking over the world anyway.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*stunned*

Ermmm....what? *blink blink*

Are you sure you're remembering me properly? *laughs*

I'm one of the most charismatic people you've ever met? Really? Uhmmm. Wow. You just made me speechless, seriously. Wow.

I know I need more confidence, but I still don't think that would change very much about my social awkwardness. I just don't know how to be cool or engaging or anything. But I appreciate you saying I do veryvery much. :)

Still stunned, by the way.

*huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugs* *morehugging*
Aiya, I just don't know what to say now. *G*

[lady-luiniel.livejournal.com]

"I just don't know how to be cool or engaging or anything."

You make your own brand of cool!!! :D You'll start a sensation - and everyone will want to be like you! :D

(Great comment, ashfae!!!)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Ashfae knows me far too well for her own good. ;-)

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

*gryn*

And BTW, SEE?!?!?! FORTY-NINE COMMENTS IN A DAY! ONE DAY! It takes me weeks to get that many on an entry, assuming I ever do. SO many people want to talk to you! And don't say it doesn't count, because it UTTERLY does!

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

Oh hush you. *blushes furiously* :-P

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

Yeah, what she said! *gryn*

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

I remember you very well; you were intelligent and adorable even from the outset.

My point was that you might not know how to be cool or engaging, but you are cool and engaging nonetheless, and particularly so in situations where you're not ill at ease (i.e. with friends or people with whom you already know you have things in common). You've got an instinctive knack for it, when you're not too busy paying attention to being nervous, and it emerges as uber-charisma. This is why I think confidence would transform you; then you could use that ability, instead of having it just come in handy for making friends. Believe me when I tell you that confidence annihilates social awkwardness; that's always how it goes for me, and we're much alike really. *gryn* *hugs*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*sighs wistfully*

You have no idea how incredibly happy you make me feel.

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

Ah, but do you believe it? *hugs*

I'm dead serious, you know; I don't say this sort of thing just to cheer people up.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I believe it. I'm learning to believe a bit more every day. :)

I told my therapist this afternoon about what you said, and he not only nodded in agreement, I believe he also added 'Damn straight Ashfae'. *grins*

[ashfae.livejournal.com]

See?? SEEEEEEEE?!?! Damn straight therapist guy! Listen to your therapist and to meeeeeee for clearly we know the score!

*hugs* Partial-belief is a start. Keep going. It gets easier with practice. =)