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[neverwhere]

Last year, I was standing above the Thames, facing the Houses of Parliament, and cheered with thousands of other people as Big Ben rang in the start of the new year.

This year, I sat on my bed (the only other piece of furniture in my miserably untidy flat apart from the computer desk), holding a bottle of root beer and watching other people having fun on t.v, and when the big ball dropped in Times Square to signal the start of 2004...I just sat there, sobbing pathetically.

That's how I greeted the new year. As a pathetic, lonely failure.

Please don't let me end the year the same way.

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[mirabehn.livejournal.com]

*holds you*

You are not remotely a failure, Coz. Nor are you pathetic in any way. And as everyone else has said, a) the quality of New Year's celebrations does not actually mean much for the rest of the year and b) if having a lousy New Year maybe strengthens your determination to change things and lead the life you want to lead, then it may even turn out to be a positive thing.

And you have many, many friends who love you. I know that you aren't near many of us, and that sucks from all our points of view, but we still are here for you and love you, and we respect you and regard you as being a particularly fabulous individual.

I miss you, Coz. I hope we can see you on the 24th.

Please don't let me end the year the same way.

You won't, I'm certain of that.

*sends enormous Brandybuck-flavoured strengthening medicine to help you*

*hugs you again*

Cousin Merry #2

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I miss you so much!

Stupid ocean. *kicks it*

I found part of my return ticket from May, and I'm pretty sure the other unused half can still be used, so there's still a wee bit of hope I can come. I will definitely know in a few days, and you'll be the first one I tell. *smooches*

I think I'm going to try and let everyone's agreement that bad New Year's are actually good for making plans for the year you can keep sink in, because I know I don't want to spend another year in the same mental (and physical) state I've been in. Operation: Get The Hell Out Of L.A will commence soon!

*hugs and kisses* Love you :)