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neverwhereLast year, I was standing above the Thames, facing the Houses of Parliament, and cheered with thousands of other people as Big Ben rang in the start of the new year.
This year, I sat on my bed (the only other piece of furniture in my miserably untidy flat apart from the computer desk), holding a bottle of root beer and watching other people having fun on t.v, and when the big ball dropped in Times Square to signal the start of 2004...I just sat there, sobbing pathetically.
That's how I greeted the new year. As a pathetic, lonely failure.
Please don't let me end the year the same way.
This year, I sat on my bed (the only other piece of furniture in my miserably untidy flat apart from the computer desk), holding a bottle of root beer and watching other people having fun on t.v, and when the big ball dropped in Times Square to signal the start of 2004...I just sat there, sobbing pathetically.
That's how I greeted the new year. As a pathetic, lonely failure.
Please don't let me end the year the same way.
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Date: 2004-01-04 03:06 pm (UTC)As for what to finish your BA in, welp, not to be biased, but an English BA is an excellent place to go to get a bit of Folklore, Theatre, Literature, History, Classics, AND leaves all those options (plus the Sci-Fi at Reading) open to you for the future. Cooooooooooooooome to the English side...*wicked gryn* And everywhere has good English degrees, and actually University of California system has some of the best English programs there are, and you'd get instate tuition...why not just apply to one (or several) of those to get your BA? Transfer in the SLC credits and go there for a year. You'd still be in California, but you'd have something worthwhile to DO while you were there, and you'd get cheap in-state tuition...I know the class sizes are scary *hugs* but it is true that you may just have to learn to deal with that...schools with class sizes like SLC's are few and far between. Look at it this way: when surrounded by so many people, you're essentially invisible, and that's not always a bad thing. It's easier to get things done when people aren't paying attention to you, because you don't have to worry what they think.
Alternately, have you written to the SLC Career Counseling Centre? Talk to Mary Raymond, for she is unutterably nice and unintimidating and helpful, very very good at being given problems and finding solutions to them, and maybe she could find some way for you to finish your SLC education from afar or something. You're hardly the first person to not quite finish your education; there *must* be something, some sort of precedent for that. Have you asked?
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Date: 2004-01-04 03:16 pm (UTC)Back, foul temptress! Your literary wiles have no affect on me... :-P
I hadn't even considered asking a career counselor, which I suppose just illustrates the daft frame of mind I'm in. *grins sheepishly*
Thank you so much for the suggestion, I shall look into it right away. *squeeeze*
And yes, I think I'm going to have to apply to UCLA. Although that means more years here. Gah. GAHHHHH. But you're right, at least I'd be doing something, which is more than can be said for the depressing stagnation I'm suffering from now.
I just need to get off my arse and DO things for once. Yes. You did it, so can I. Yes I can. *repeats over and over* :)
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Date: 2004-01-04 03:57 pm (UTC)And yep, you're so in the rut I was in, and therefore you too can get off your arse and DO things for once. *kick kick* I'm still getting the hang of it, but the first trick is just to start doing things. My logic is even if I screw up, well, at least I'm out of the rut!
Why do you have to apply to UCLA though? Why not Berkeley? And if you only are missing 5 credits, could you finish in a semester rather than a year? That's really not much! I'm only talking about finishing your BA after all, not the Masters--clearly for the MAsters you should go to Reading! *hugs* And yeah, DEFINITELY talk to MAry Raymond because if you can get the degree through SLC, much much much much MUCH better!
*hugs* You're brilliant! Don't forget!
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Date: 2004-01-04 04:03 pm (UTC)>You're brilliant! Don't forget!
I try not to. :)))
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Date: 2004-01-04 06:29 pm (UTC)