'Not all tears are an evil'...but this is getting ridiculous

[neverwhere]

I have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.


I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*


You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)

Comments

I like your icon better than mine :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

>Faramir's ride to Osgiliath, and "My friends, you bow to no one."

OHMYGODSYES. *sniffle*

>I was crying so hard that I was SOBBING loudly and I was SHAKING and everyone TURNED AROUND and looked at me. It was quite embarrassing

That happened to me the first time -- I had been trying to hold it in for so long that by the time of the Coronation I couldn't take it any more and it all came out in loud, rasping sobs that didn't falter until the credits rolled. And not even then, really. The second time I snuffled and shook, but didn't break down into noisy sobs. At least, not until I got in the car to go home.
I think I've started shaking and sobbing at least 5 times when I've tried to talk about it with people. It's all just so wonderful.

>I really wanted to sing but I couldn't sing. I was crying too hard.

Me too. *squeezes your hand*

>Let's form a support group.

If there isn't one already, there will be now. :)

Re: I like your icon better than mine :)

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

You can take this icon - I didn't make it, just credit to noxious gases. She was a very nice person who let me use it. :)

What should we call our support group? "Sniffly pervy hobbit fanciers"?

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

A list of possible support group names:

shoresofvalinor

starsfarewell ('I will not say the day is done, nor bid the stars farewell')

thelonelystar
thestarlitsea ('Guided by the Lonely Star...I'll find the heavens fair and free, and beaches of the Starlit Sea')

theroadgoeson

manypartings



...and so on in that fashion. *G*

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

I like thestarlitsea the best.........but I like all of them!!! :)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

thestarlitsea -- Ta daaaa! :D

Now we just need a beautiful graphic on the info page to attract new members, and maybe a few pretty icons as well. Wheee!

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

I'm totally crap at making icons, but I find lots of them in icons communities. Wish I could make nicer ones....bleah.