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neverwhereI have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.
I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.
I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*
You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)
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Date: 2004-01-21 05:12 am (UTC)In fact, the fourth time I saw the movie, when Aragorn told the hobbits that they bow to no one, I was crying so hard that I was SOBBING loudly and I was SHAKING and everyone TURNED AROUND and looked at me. It was quite embarrassing.
And just yesterday, I was listening to "Into the West" in my car, and playing it over and over, and singing along. And every single time I would get to the chorus, my voice would break and I would totally start crying my eyes out. I really wanted to sing but I couldn't sing. I was crying too hard.
Let's form a support group.
I like your icon better than mine :)
Date: 2004-01-21 08:14 am (UTC)>Faramir's ride to Osgiliath, and "My friends, you bow to no one."
OHMYGODSYES. *sniffle*
>I was crying so hard that I was SOBBING loudly and I was SHAKING and everyone TURNED AROUND and looked at me. It was quite embarrassing
That happened to me the first time -- I had been trying to hold it in for so long that by the time of the Coronation I couldn't take it any more and it all came out in loud, rasping sobs that didn't falter until the credits rolled. And not even then, really. The second time I snuffled and shook, but didn't break down into noisy sobs. At least, not until I got in the car to go home.
I think I've started shaking and sobbing at least 5 times when I've tried to talk about it with people. It's all just so wonderful.
>I really wanted to sing but I couldn't sing. I was crying too hard.
Me too. *squeezes your hand*
>Let's form a support group.
If there isn't one already, there will be now. :)
Re: I like your icon better than mine :)
Date: 2004-01-21 02:17 pm (UTC)What should we call our support group? "Sniffly pervy hobbit fanciers"?
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Date: 2004-01-22 10:12 am (UTC)A list of possible support group names:
shoresofvalinor
starsfarewell ('I will not say the day is done, nor bid the stars farewell')
thelonelystar
thestarlitsea ('Guided by the Lonely Star...I'll find the heavens fair and free, and beaches of the Starlit Sea')
theroadgoeson
manypartings
...and so on in that fashion. *G*
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Date: 2004-01-22 02:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-22 09:02 pm (UTC)Now we just need a beautiful graphic on the info page to attract new members, and maybe a few pretty icons as well. Wheee!
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Date: 2004-01-23 04:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-21 08:19 am (UTC)> I had been trying to hold it in for so long that by the time of the Coronation I couldn't take it any more and it all came out in loud, rasping sobs
I should clarify that I had been crying nearly since the beginning of the film ('We'll see each other again soon, won't we Merry?' *SOB*), but had been trying (and occasionally failing) to keep myself from being so loud the entire cinema would hear my anguish.
I don't know why I felt the need to have this addendum, actually. *giggles sheepishly*
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Date: 2004-01-21 02:19 pm (UTC)Let's face it, I was a big puddle of tears after Pippin's song and Faramir's ride to Osgiliath (as mentioned earlier)....*sniffle* *sob* *wail*
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Date: 2004-01-21 07:30 pm (UTC)*wraps arms around you and holds tight*
We are such saps.
But y'know what? I think this is a good thing. :)
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Date: 2004-01-21 10:09 pm (UTC)It would be fun seeing ROTK with you, but we'd have to bring lots of hankies!
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Date: 2004-01-22 09:45 am (UTC)Arizona is both so close and so far away! Poot. *sulky face*
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Date: 2004-01-22 02:20 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-22 09:04 pm (UTC)I believe they're actually playing some sort of drum solo, but in my imagination they're showing off their BADASS ninja hobbit skillz. *giggles*
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Date: 2004-01-23 04:13 am (UTC)