'Not all tears are an evil'...but this is getting ridiculous

[neverwhere]

I have just been listening to the Return of the King soundtrack, and could not refrain from feeling choked up the entire time. And the tears started flowing in the middle of Return of the King, and didn't stop until the end of Into the West. What the hell is wrong with me??
I can't even read the lyrics of Into the West without getting a knot in my stomach. This has got to stop.


I'm worried that although ROTK is now my favourite film ever, I will never be able to properly enjoy it without being so overwhelmed by my emotions I feel numb afterwards. I'm also rather worried that this whole crying thing is detrimental to my emotional well being. I know there are lots of reasons for why I am still so affected by ROTK: I'm incredibly unhappy with my life at the moment, and I feel such a connection to the story and characters that I am both uplifted by them and encouraged to persevere against all odds, but also plagued with self-doubt, for I fear I shall never be able to accomplish even the smallest task, nor ever have such endearing, powerful friendships to help me through my struggles. It is also Journey's End -- my life has for so long (or so it seems) revolved around these stories, I don't know what I will do now that the experience will be over. I don't want to say goodbye. I'm getting choked up even as I type, thinking of Frodo sailing into the West, and what that means for both his friends and for me.

I also think I am WAY too sensitive, and affected by fictional things. I know this to be true, and it has always been true, but it hasn't stopped me feeling this way. I think this is quite possibly the most extreme it's ever been though. And most embarrassing. *sigh*


You're all probably worrying about my sanity now. Well, join the club. :)

Comments

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

> I had been trying to hold it in for so long that by the time of the Coronation I couldn't take it any more and it all came out in loud, rasping sobs


I should clarify that I had been crying nearly since the beginning of the film ('We'll see each other again soon, won't we Merry?' *SOB*), but had been trying (and occasionally failing) to keep myself from being so loud the entire cinema would hear my anguish.

I don't know why I felt the need to have this addendum, actually. *giggles sheepishly*

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

I was crying since that part too!!! The look in Pip's eyes when he realized Merry wasn't coming with him, and Merry's run up the stairs to see Pip riding away.... *wail*

Let's face it, I was a big puddle of tears after Pippin's song and Faramir's ride to Osgiliath (as mentioned earlier)....*sniffle* *sob* *wail*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*wraps arms around you and holds tight*

We are such saps.

But y'know what? I think this is a good thing. :)

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

*snuggles in*

It would be fun seeing ROTK with you, but we'd have to bring lots of hankies!

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Arizona is both so close and so far away! Poot. *sulky face*

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

OK I have to ask....what are DomandBilleh doing in your icon????? LOL

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I believe they're actually playing some sort of drum solo, but in my imagination they're showing off their BADASS ninja hobbit skillz. *giggles*

[malakhai.livejournal.com]

I thought Billeh might be teaching Dom how to do "Pip Foo".