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[neverwhere]

Arrghh.

Am the fattest fat that was ever fat. *sob*

No one should ever have to be weighed and have their body fat measured with those horrid tongs while being smirked at by a skinny bitch who is obviously sooooo superior to you because she doesn't look like a beached whale.

I mean, I knew I was fat -- it's rather impossible not to notice, but I didn't think I was THAT fat. When I saw the scale I just wanted to die.

Am now going to gym three times a week in hopes that I will no longer be fat, unproductive and unloved member of society. Also must not eat anything remotely delicious, as it will, apparently, add an extra 5 inches to my waist as soon as it touches my lips. Hurrah.

*hangs head and sighs*

Comments

[mlfoley.livejournal.com]

*huggles you*

Don't let it get you too down. Everyone on the Internet is fat. You're among peers! ;)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

This is true.

Hey, if I lose the weight, I'll no longer be an oppresed geek! I don't think I want to lose my minority status...;-)

[chicanerys-muse.livejournal.com]

didn't we have this conversation last night??

Body fat is jnot worth crying over..

if you are healthy and happy.. who gives a shit what size you are???

you are a cutie.. don't let the man get you down

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Hehehe yes we did. :) *smoooch*

Meh, I'm not crying, just agonizing and hating myself. Which is of course entirely different. *giggles* ;-)

[mrs-puppethead.livejournal.com]

So you're not a stick-figure. Neither am I, but I'm still adorable, witty, an excellent writer (okay, I'm pushing it there), and worthy of respect.

So are you. Fuck them, Nevvie, for making you feel like you need to conform to their standards to be a worthy member of society. Let that bitch smirk all she wants, if it's all she can take pleasure from. Fuck them and go out and keep doing your thing, because if they can't see how beautiful (inside and out) you are, they aren't worth the space they take up. We can see it and we love you.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*respect*

*worship*

*love* :)

Ai, you're so amazing Kris. Thanks for making me feel better darling. *hugs and kisses* :)

[etoilepb.livejournal.com]

Not the fattest fat, TRUST me.

Have broken down in doctor's office, into horrid sobs, every one of last visits because nothing seems to make a difference. Horrible cycles and all that. At least you're going to the gym. I'm scared of machine-thingies and I hate being where people can see me, so it's not even worth the money I don't have. You're making an effort. It's shitty that it matters so much in the world, but at least you're trying to make a change for the positive. I'm just doomed.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Thankfully it's not a normal gym -- there's no way in hell I could ever submit myself to the torture that is the American gym, full of tight-arsed blondes in thongs. *shudder* This place isn't even a gym really, it's very small and private, and your sessions on the equipment are just you and your personal trainer. THANK GOD.

So I'll get bossed around alot, but as least I won't have to worry about Barbie looking down at me in disgust. :)

You're not doomed. *snugggles*

[trianne.livejournal.com]

Nevvie,
ixnay on the ymgay. Much more effective weight loss regime is stalking out Santa Monica for me. Okay? You did more or less promise...
your new studio flat sounds incredible! You are so lucky :)
x

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I do have an open invitation to visit my cousin in Santa Monica any time...;-)

And you are going to come visit me at my flat, right? Cause stalking is definitely more fun with two. *grins*

[leiabelle.livejournal.com]

*hugs'n'snugs*

Those tongs have just got to be one of the cruelest implements ever. Blargh.

Yay going to the gym (it can be quite satisfying), but NEVER THINK that you are unproductive and unloved. Unloved?? Read your LJ comments, woman! :D (I know you know this, but I must point it out if I'm to be allowed to keep my "Mistress of the Obvious" badge.)

<333

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

That's a very nice, shiny badge you've got there. ;-)

I know I'm not 'unloved' per se, at least, not online -- it's the real world, where I am utterly ignored by everyone except the people who want to mock me that gets me down. No wonder I spend as little time there as possible. *grins impishly*

[airemay.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Things will get better. My mommy is on a diet right now and she is already feeling much better. She has lost 11 pounds. I am so proud of her. :)

So, have you been getting this freakishly hot weather, too? It's been hella hott down here.

[tomatorama.livejournal.com]

Wah! Please don't become Briget Jones! Sometimes you must love how you look? Because if you don't, well you should because you are gorgeous. Must I be the only person who prefers myself fat and other people fat, and suffer as every single gorgeous person intentionally wastes away?

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Well, Bridget did end up with Mr Darcy...;-)

Nolite te bastardes caborundorum!

[banazir.livejournal.com]

Dknot listen to them, Nevvie! Wot do they know? Just be healthy and happy with yourelf, yer hear?

Seriously, weight norms are one of the most warped and inconsistent things about Murkian culture, as you well know, in lal probability.

--
Banazîr
(just bax from a trip to DC)

Re: Nolite te bastardes caborundorum!

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Thank you, oh Jedi Hobbit master. *bows*

*giggles*

*squish* :)

[bcgphoenix]

Number one: I think those tongs were invented by the same person who thought up thumbscrews and the iron maiden.

Number two: As many, many other people have said, fuck the smirking twig-girls. (Though perhaps not literally....) If some bitch thinks she can make you feel bad just because you're not a size zero, she needs to have her ass beaten into the GROUND. If anything, you should've been smirking at her - at least you don't look like a skeleton.

Being fat does not equal being ugly. POWER TO THE PLUS-SIZED! *big hug*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*laughs*

Ai, you're so upbeat! How do you do that. ;-)

*huuuug*

[marp2003.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

You're beautiful, Nev.

[silverwraith.livejournal.com]

I hate skinny smirking people. and I hate those tongs almost as much. *shiver* you know, I haven't weighed myself in three years? when they put me on the scale at the doctor's a year or so ago I asked them not to say it out loud, so I could just not look at the scale and be oblivious. and now I'm afraid to know. all I know is it's Beached Whale status. yay.

anyway, don't get down on yourself, Nevvie. *squish* <3 who gives a shit what those skinny bitches think?

[jrivka.livejournal.com]

NEVVIE. YOU STOP THAT RIGHT NOW.

i've read all the comments, and i'm not going to preach about how fat is beautiful because i look in the mirror and cry and i am lots of things, but i am not a fucking hypocrite.

what i am going to tell you is that you are beautiful. you are a beautiful human being, goddamit, and one of the coolest people i know.

however. if you don't feel beautiful, if you aren't happy looking into the mirror, if you can't stand to step on a scale. then change. but you have to differentiate— are you going to the gym three times a week because you want to be healthier, and you want to be happier with yourself? or are you doing it because the bitch who weighed you gave you a disapproving look?

because if it's the latter, then a big FUCK YOU to the world at large. but if it's the former, then i am with you all the way.

although seriously, have you ever shopped at torrid (http://www.torrid.com/)? because they have clothes i would gain weight to fit into.

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Sigh. Jori, why can't you live near me? I need your snogs encouragement and empathy desperately. *hugs you tight*

I'm going to the gym to lose weight so I can (hopefully) feel better about myself, and to make my dad happy. I'm trying to pretend it's really more for the first reason than the second.

I have seen the stuff at Torrid but never bought anything because they don't have any shops in England. I suppose I don't have that excuse anymore...;-) (It certainly would be nice to look like a gothygirl again. That was fun. :)

[ephiriel.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't worry about a thing. I bought into this "I'm fat" notion. I joined weight watchers and lost a few stone. I've stopped but everybody (those I don't see everyday) is still concerned that I will loose more weight and become skinny and unattractive. I feel sorry for those that think they must be skinny - do they have so little confidence about themselves that they think the physical appearance is all they have? As we all know that will fade in time - what do we have then?
Basically, sod them all!

[laizeohbeets.livejournal.com]

just chalk it up to living in southern cali with all those southern cali... skinny gym weightloss snobs. remember- this is the same group that invented the hollywood miracle diet and double-sided tape. forget about it!

hey, you have another reason to be pissed at your dad now!

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Mmmmmm Ever After. Fab film. :)

Heh. There are so many reasons my friend...;-)

[sillypants.livejournal.com]

How much you weigh is not a relevant comment on you or how wonderful you are.

I love you, so you can't be ALL bad ;)

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

I knowwwwwww. How can you not adore me? *flutters eyelashes prettily* :D

*hugs and bananaberry kisses*

[soupytwist.livejournal.com]

I hate those evil, evil tongs with the fire of a thousand suns. (I've been poked with 'em every year since I was... ten. ARGH.) I feel the pain.

Seriously, though? Your body weight, and even your body fat ratio, means absolutely nothing when it comes to you being someone who's nice and worth knowing. (And if telling you that meant beliving it, then damn, I'm be the best therapist in the world, eh?)

[nerdcakes.livejournal.com]

Well you may be fat, but judging by that picture of you of your icon, you're absolutely gorgeous anyway :D

So don't worry, we all struggle with our weight (I hope, maybe it's just me and I never realised) but whatever size you are you're still a wonderful, adorable person. And we'll love you whether you're fat or not *snuggles*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggleblush*

Why thank you!

I do have rather luscious curls. Am so adorably hobbity. *wiggles hobbit toes* :D

*squeeeze!*

Elly spooges...

[mirabehn.livejournal.com]

I'd be willing to bet that you're far prettier than the skinny woman. Okay, I've never seen her. But I've seen you and you're a cutie, and don't you forget it.

And I *know* that you're a far more wonderful, funny, talented, attractive and hobbitlike person than she could ever hope to be. What a sad life she must have if she despises you just because she's thinner... I mean, for heaven's sake, how *sad* is that??

I'd say that exercise = a good thing, but remember that it's now pretty accepted that dieting is a lot more unhealthy than being overweight-but-with-exercise. I don't know how you eat generally, but the only thing I'd prescribe to anyone is lots of fruit and veg (find the tastiest you can find!!) and plenty of water and herbal tea. Beyond that? Well, cut down on the delicious things if you must, but I severely doubt if you really need to cut them out. Bollock to the five inches. You know it's not true. Oh, and if you can find some exercise that gets you out into the fresh air and that you actually *enjoy*, then that's probably better than the gym.

Aim for *health* rather than a definite weight, I would say, and if you lose weight then fantastic, but if you don't then sod it -you'll live a hell of a lot longer than any weight-obsessed bitchy person who fusses about every cake, and you'll be just as beautiful.

I say this all in partial ignorance - I'm mostly trying to gain weight rather than lose it, as you know! But I've spent far too much of my time needing to read up on nutrition and health matters 'cos of the M.E. so you know I'm right. ;)

Incidentally, any society in which you are unloved is seriously screwed up. You're certainly adored on Livejournal. I miss you, babes. I keep forgetting you don't live in Surrey anymore and we can't invite you over again and find Efrafa together. :(

Re: Elly spooges...

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

Elly is always right. Even when she's lost. No, especially when she's lost. *giggles* ;-)

I miss you so much. *clinghugs*

[akira114.livejournal.com]

That skinny bitch has never had a slice of pizza, or a Big Mac -let alone a french fry- in her life. It's all salad, bottled water, vitamins, and vomit.

Don't you fret, dear. If it makes you feel any better, she's a whore. ^__^

*hugs*

Akira

[ixwin.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Like other people have said
a) You're lovely as you are
b) Eating more healthily & exercising is great, if it's going to make you feel better about yourself, but PLEASE don't get obsessive about it 'cos it's much better to be a bit overweight & happy, than skinny but neurotic.
c) It's the culture that's warped, not you.
d) Remember that 'delicious' and 'non-fattening' aren't mutually exclusive -fruit smoothies, popcorn etc.
e) You are very much loved and appreciated, & you can always come back here when you need reminding of that.

[amea.livejournal.com]

**squggles** I'd obviously say not unloved. =^_^= Because wherever you go on the Internet, you bump into Nevviefans! An army of vicious rabid Nevviefans could take on skinny evil doctress ANY DAY (and squish her.) So. Um. There.

You, m'dear, are living proof positive that size doesn't matter! ~_^

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*squeee*

An army of Nevviefans...what an interesting thought...*plots* *cackles* ;-)

[kasyx.livejournal.com]

*holds you close* I think you're lovely. I've never seen you, and I don't care what you look like. Most of the people I talk to online that I like I've never met, don't care. :-) *kisses your forhead*

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

I thought you had seen pictures of me before? Well, this is me. Ta daaa. *G*

You're such a sweetheart! *cuddlesmoooch* :)

[silvante.livejournal.com]

you miss ottah are not fat and thats the end of that young lady

[angelislington.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

Yes sir, Mr ickle skunkyboi sir. *smooooch* :)

ah! the 'fat' word!

[blantoncirith.livejournal.com]

ugh, once I get registered for my summer class, I'll be taking advantage of the campus gym as well. It's time for me to take bloomin' charge about my slowly-growing pudginess. I'm going to Stop it before it gets worse! Huzzah, will power!

I wish you luck on your quest, Nevvie! *huggle*